Calling outright abusive behavior "between us" is really fucked up. Not to mention, combined with your pedophilia and the fact that you're already okay with sexualizing minors, you really are going to end up grooming or raping someone. The fact that you cannot see the warning signs horrifies me. But as I've already said, I can't talk to anyone unwilling to listen, and this is seeming pretty damn bleak. I only hope that you see how messed up you are soon or are forced far away from anyone else you could hurt. Goodbye, I guess.