I'm deciding to part ways from Retrospring... I've been planning such an action for a bit now & in regards to the public eye for a multitude of reasons. I have an unfortunate addiction to attention and have versed myself so deep in my own hypocrisy I'm not even sure where to begin. I wish to better myself in a way that I won't have to lose sleep over petty ordeals.

I've enjoyed my time within the spotlight of many, but I feel this is the first step to a genuine recovery. Using online platforms as a crutch for my NPD has been more harmful than I could ever fathom, This is not to put down others who wish to stay this is just something I've had on my mind for awhile. I cannot bare to lose myself within the lies in which others spread due to their own malicious gain or for the sheer fact of enjoying watching people crumble. It's disheartening to see such pure friendships get muddled with hearsay, but what would I know, really? I wish to all those who've wronged me to find themselves for what they truly are & face reality... God knows I tried but simply it's too much for someone like I— to bare.

It truly was interesting to witness what those would do when faced with Influence, the way those act when they see a chance to define others. Guilty of this myself, I can never understand my effect on others, which is something I will live with forevermore. Most days I've felt like a passenger within my life, letting others warp my own perception of myself if it meant I could keep myself in a place of righteousness. Would it be hypocritical of me to call out such hypocrisy? I do wonder... I think of many things, I fantasize of what I'd say to people's faces if I ever had the chance... Lulling myself to sleep, with the idea of hurting those who've hurt me. Quite frankly, it's exhausting. I hurt myself more by letting myself succumb into such a state, it's what they want; This back & forth of obsession, constant stalking, always checking profiles. I'll admit, I've done it too, I let my obsessive compulsions get the better of me, obsessive execration will be my death.

But not for long, for I wish to change & recover. To grow as a person, to become the one that doesn't have to aim for a last laugh. It's a goal, for sure.. one I wish to reach. To become one with the seven heavenly virtues, one can dream. And that I will, dreaming on as I was made to be... 〜 (．ꈍ ꑘ )ꑘ

I'm deciding to part ways from Retrospring... I've been planning such an action for a bit now & in regards to the public eye for a multitude of reasons. I have an unfortunate addiction to attention and have versed myself so deep in my own hypocrisy I'm not even sure where to begin. I wish to better myself in a way that I won't have to lose sleep over petty ordeals.

I've enjoyed my time within the spotlight of many, but I feel this is the first step to a genuine recovery. Using online platforms as a crutch for my NPD has been more harmful than I could ever fathom, This is not to put down others who wish to stay this is just something I've had on my mind for awhile. I cannot bare to lose myself within the lies in which others spread due to their own malicious gain or for the sheer fact of enjoying watching people crumble. It's disheartening to see such pure friendships get muddled with hearsay, but what would I know, really? I wish to all those who've wronged me to find themselves for what they truly are & face reality... God knows I tried but simply it's too much for someone like I— to bare.

It truly was interesting to witness what those would do when faced with Influence, the way those act when they see a chance to define others. Guilty of this myself, I can never understand my effect on others, which is something I will live with forevermore. Most days I've felt like a passenger within my life, letting others warp my own perception of myself if it meant I could keep myself in a place of righteousness. Would it be hypocritical of me to call out such hypocrisy? I do wonder... I think of many things, I fantasize of what I'd say to people's faces if I ever had the chance... Lulling myself to sleep, with the idea of hurting those who've hurt me. Quite frankly, it's exhausting. I hurt myself more by letting myself succumb into such a state, it's what they want; This back & forth of obsession, constant stalking, always checking profiles. I'll admit, I've done it too, I let my obsessive compulsions get the better of me, obsessive execration will be my death.

But not for long, for I wish to change & recover. To grow as a person, to become the one that doesn't have to aim for a last laugh. It's a goal, for sure.. one I wish to reach. To become one with the seven heavenly virtues, one can dream. And that I will, dreaming on as I was made to be... 〜 (．ꈍ ꑘ )ꑘ

She's Everything... & He's just Faust.
・🫀 ； WAHHH WAHH HWAHWHAHA FAUSSTIEPIE ... You made a grave mistake coming into my retrospring .. dare send me an anatomical heart? you must know what this entails, right? No man would be foolish enough to send such things without knowing the dastardly consequences. Lalala... Time to lovebomb you .. or whatever the libearals say ... Lalala~

I'll marry you in every universe .. 💍 You could never begin to IMAGINE! Beyond human comprehension? WRONG. Beyond Yog comprehension. Knower of everything? I don't think so! Sigh.. You're turning me into something good, Everytime I get those obsessive urges I just start writing love letters to you.. you're killing me! You're destroying the crawling chaos! Love makes you crazy? nuh uh.. love makes me normal.

We're everything & more.. Together as One, She of Everything and He of Nothing. Paradoxical within nature and beyond such, together our love drips together ... How I love to melt into you. You are everywhere, yet I still can't seem to get enough of you ... ~ 🚬🧸 <- I just realized one of our 'Emoji Combos' looks like I'm smoking ... Bad Habit, I need to cancel you. I'm literally the size of a peanut I can't be around you, you smell like a soggy newport cigarette.

Haters mad they cannot escape our clutches... for we're everywhere, within every media, embedded into every surface. I keep squeaking trying to write this because I just ... I don't know, love you so much? You probably don't care though.. Heh, Guess I deserve it! You're simply one of the most interesting people I've ever spoken to, I wish to invade your mind ... I wish I could be a parasitic leech within you, to experience what goes through your mind within every moment. Won't you let me in? 🐏. * Starts rapidly throwing dead birds at your bedroom window *

Babe.. My mind.. It rots at the thought of you, my flesh churns and my blood weeps. I don't think i'll ever get to tell you enough, the things I wish for you to hear, for in which I wish to say... To spill out my brain&guts for you to see, just so you could know all the things I'd do&think of you. But enough of such nonsense! Are we here to discuss such orchestrated carnage or are we here to give silly facts that will never truly let the public know how much I love you so.

Hmmm... Let's see, I'd like to say multiple things because I'm feel very .. Happy & ERM .. Typey~? Whatever the flug ... Me & My Dollies, more so of a romantic variant have several emoji combos in which are us; For Wife it's: ☀&🌙, 🤍&💜, 🩷&💜, 🕊️&🦉 ... Which are the only ones I know of currently. Then for Us ... { stares at you for a solid 10 seconds } it's 🍓&🔪, 🧸&🚬, 🐏&🐺, 🤍&🖤, ❤️‍🩹&🖤 ... Hehe. I don't have any for any other, except maybe ... Hmmm, My girlfriend & I occasionally are 🩸&🎀 ... But that's around it.

I LOVE YOUUUUUU please I love you so mucheee... ~

MY DAUGHTER.. Your profiles scare me .. From mori kei to hibbidy hoo blah.. IDIOT GOD BLESS!

・🫀 ； I love all parts of my family.. My daughters, My momma, My papa and of course my partners! For they are inherently family as well. Just realized i'm the mother of all of my kids, Lamby, Starra, Amihya, Ren... Etc. I adore them all, I need to make a family tree because of how extensive it is. I will also include my affair child, Cthylla. I love her just as much. { which sounds a little silly .. buuuut~ I love you my cthu-malgamation }
・🎒 ； As one might know I'm stemmed from Sothothery! Through & through.. but a lot of is ... Wrong. Me and HPL had intense BEEF! Okay, a lot of details are wrong to spite me .. I'll go into detail if we're close & you're curious.. but I'm the only son of God. The others were curated of another, yet he still rules over all. It's why I see everyone as little dollies... Dolls dolls dolls~ Lalala!
・🕊️ ； Another TxtIs dedicated to meine Leere is love! It's not much but I think it's very cutesiepie.. #Narc.