wow! i feel like no one sends me questions on this any-more (probably because i don:t advertise it at all any-more); first: hello, anonymous; i appreciate the compliments -- i like frida kahlo, she scared me a-bunch in highschool because of the veins (couldn:t stand looking at several of her paintings without feeling nauseous and weak).
to your other stuff: i don:t really know what you are referring to; a handful of my fans are really set-around the "turb" era of art where there-is more writing and more flagrant destruction -- but that was ~two(?) years ago; it:s been about ~1.5 years since i:ve self-harmed, i think? (or: self-mutilation, more specifically; and even-more encompassing: when i decided to do-away with 'lucifer-logic' and aggregate server prescriptions (meaning: defining the self under logical community understandable terms (classifying the self as self-destructive, mentally ill, the logics of psychiatry, the language of psychiatry, the logics of community, of friends, of groups, of etcetera--everything outside of the holy and the gaps where logic /is not/ and where logic /seeks/ to erode and cauterize))). mostly though, all of the writing/art from that era was based on pretty-real stuff (the scars are my scars; if i drew self-harm it was likely cataloguing what-it-looked like). my more recent stuff is pretty lite on text, sans some collaging ~early this year about harming animals. my recent stuff is pretty lite, in general, as i don:t really do much at all any-more sides lay in bed and waste; go to church and pray; clean the house; learn to cook; read and read; &c. i:m mostly just an old tired sick normie now.
to your last thing: send me money so i can spend it on groceries and books >:-)) but more importantly: you shouldn:t feel like it is your responsibility to help 'hurt-seeming' strangers online (even if they are really hurting). a life spent unraveling and going-crazy is as vibrant and bright as any-other. but i do like getting money to get books and groceries all the same :-) but it:s up to mara to help mara, ultimately.

so: take care, anonymous, and just-the-same: it:s up to you, to help 'you,' too!