anon · 5mo
Hihi!!! I wanted to say I really resonated with what you said about workforce life :( I just wanna let you know you're not alone on that. I hope you don't feel guilty or ashamed. Life is too fast and too crazy for gentle souls (I'm intuitively picking up just from your response that that could be the case????)
I had a maybe not so similar experience where I worked in a foreign country (Japan) and honestly it wasn't what I thought it was going to be... no I didn't think it would be all anime and titties, but like... they really crush individuality and authenticity and it crushed my soul. Needless to say my mental health suffered and it was the darkest time of my life, and I only somewhat recently moved back to my original country a few months ago. I'm still recovering mentally, and physically now too because I think I gave myself a slipped disc doing yoga not so long ago so meh 😭 but it's hard to be in the workforce of this world. Honestly, anywhere really. I think I want to work for myself but I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to do with that. I have another friend with a similar experience. She can't work in the workforce so she does a lot of different artworks and hand made stuff and she sells them. It took her years to figure it out though. So what I wanna say is, you're not alone in this. This world fucking sucks and it's too much for people who become overwhelmed so easily and who feel so deeply. It's too much for us who require that slow attentiveness and authenticity and care, when we live in a society that constantly tells you to go go go. To keep moving forward without stopping. I innerstand you, friend.
I would want to recommend you some books or some information about this kind of thing but.. I don't know you that well to know if it would be useful at all ^^" anygays yes I see you, I hear you 💙
ohhhh thank u for talking to me about this !!
i feel bad that u resonate with how i feel .. but im glad to know ure on the mend as well :-) i think .. well .. this is a serious discussion that wud take hours to really dig into properly but overall i think mental health is overlooked a lot , even as we shift into a world that seems more "welcoming" to people like us , it still feels .. superficial
to me .. my mental issues .. the struggles that i have , these are not things that are easily fixed by simply Trying to be happy , or bruteforcing my way into a "normal" life .. like u said , when ur mental health takes a toll , it takes a long time to build it back up , and sometimes u have to carry pieces of it with u everywhere that just wont fit in anymore .. and i think . a lot of people , even our generation , they see mental health as this .. this thing that can sometimes be annoying , but overall benign .. it isnt benign at all .. for some of us , it seeps into everything , it weakens our physical health ..
theres a reason they say u need a healthy body And a healthy mind . and .. if my experience with .. the ways i tried to "cure" this mental state of mine is anything to go by , ive found that sometimes .. sometimes things are just too difficult to try to work through .. the workplace stuff , i understand ur friend very well .. it takes a while to figure out what u can possibly do , if anything , to create a life for urself that wont drive u to drastic measures ..
its very serious .. its always been serious , and i wish more people understood that if we could , we would .. i dont think anyone wants to rot at home , to not contribute to society .. theres peace and tranquility in that unity, in knowing that u are part of something bigger and u are doing ur part , and when u cannot do these things , it adds onto that stress .. it adds this sense of inadequacy , like people are always judging u.. but .. ive learned to live with that , and to put my own wellbeing first .. i dont realyl mind if people think im lazy anymore .. i think we each have our own paths to follow , and theres no shame in walking slower than most , because we all reach the same destination in the end : -)
anyway sorry for talking ur ears off , i am really glad that u were able to go back home and that ure working on things for yourself .. i think we can do it , both u and me , we can be happy , so i wish u the best on ur journey as well !!! thank u ; 3; kisses u tenderly
