anon · 5mo
anons and mofu.. we dont know each other but i hope u kno its So comforting to know that there are other ppl who share the opinions/struggles as me . ive always been called lazy or slow because my best was lower than what people would expect , that i could feel there was something Up with me but didnt know how to communicate that to others . or u know. sometimes things that are easy to others are hard to you, and vice versa, and i think many people struggle to understand this in a way ... not out of malice but concern , maybe .
im very very happy that u dont let it bother u anymore .. being called lazy andthe such, its so easy tp ping pong between "this is me i dont Care what u say . i know me best" and "but i should be x y z things and its not working out and it stresses me out"
Umm i truly dont have anything else to say i just want everyone to kno that knowing what is "Wrong" with urself or not . its ok if youre built a little different , if ur life looks different from what others think it should, even if sometimes it doesnt look like its ok
oh this is so sweet ..., im so glad u found some comfort in us , its always so healing to know there are others struggling with the exact same thing u are , and they are still putting one foot in front of the other despite their difficulties (ง •_•)ง
to be honest ive been called lazy all my life , uncaring , unwilling to put effort into anything .. ive always had to struggle with peoples perception of me , and how i could ever find peace in a world that moves so quickly while i rest . i think with time i got used to it , but its not easy , and even i sometimes look at others and wonder what couldve been if i had just mustered the strength to do more when i gave up
but then i think it couldve been worse .. how do i put it .. people tend to react negatively when theyre put under a large amount of stress , which is why usually drastic measures are taken at a time when they feel like theyre suffocating , like theres no other way out so to speak .. and objectively speaking , i know that if i tried to lead the same life my peers are , i would not last very long . i know this from experience , and while i also know that ive reached the Other extreme now , im confident that i made the right choices back then .. to stop .. to take breaks .. to be more gentle with myself
im very lucky that i can listen to my mind when it asks for these breaks , most cannot , and thats how many meet their end really .. im a unique case i think , which is why i think that while not everyone cud afford to just Stop Working for a while , its important to at least make the most of ur choices in that circumstance .. work if u must , if theres no other way , but try to find Some Things that can offer u some peace , like a routine thats yours alone that u dont share with anyone else , something that gives u some sense of ownership over ur life, that feels purposeful for u alone ..
and yes , as u said , theres nothing wrong with being built differently (￣y▽,￣)╭ ive come to realise that what others call "real life" or a "normal life" looks different for everyone , and mine just happens to be like that , and even as i try to improve it , i dont hate it .. and myself , for simply needing to go at a slower pace . anything to keep us living longer is worth it in my eyes !
love u anon .. <3
