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local anon · 1y

sorry, I meant characters that are self-insert vectors! do you have a self-insert character, or someone you suuuuuuper relate to? or both..!!

I don't really do self-insert vectors, and honestly the characters I find are too similar to me are actually the hardest for me to relate to (and by extension, to draw) because I don't get a lot of personal catharsis from fictional solidarity.

If I have to name any character in the entire Little Foolery catalogue I do with Muun that is most like me in personality and disposition it'd be Jolanka (Gaze An Eagle Blind) since she's deeply autistic, has sense of humor dryer than the desert, extreme perfectionist, vain about her sense of pride but deeply insecure about her worth -- but the amount of work it took to design and tap into her head was immense. I threw many tantrums at Muun about it. She can attest.

I have an easier time tapping/relating to characters less as individuals and more as players in a socratic dialogue to explore ideas, concepts, or struggles that either vex me or are foreign to me. The characters I find easiest to tap into and channel are the ones who are most unlike me because it's a more engaged experience of having to debate a position or challenge myself to see the world in a logic I don't necessarily agree with.

The characters I find most easiest to channel in that regard... off the top of my head: Felix Lowe (Gaze An Eagle Blind), Vincent Byrde (Small Town Witch), Kanan (Song of the Bull Rider), Ferdinand (Sfeer Theory).... which is a list of characters who are self-destructive disassociated hedonists/addicts with massive rage issues lol (well, except for Kanan, who is mostly just the rage issues).

I'm not an addictive personality in any capacity, and I live a very high-functioning and structured life, so feel it's natural that I find the polar opposite of that fascinating in finding a way to understand that kind of pov.

anyway hope that was interesting!

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