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And another problem is that I was very rarely interested in someone. Maybe it was only twice... I mean during all this time...
I don't know what to do. I'm at a dead end.
Do you think people in reality are also the same as on the Internet? I mean in a bad way...
You can't talk at all right now?
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I relate immensely to being upset from feeling rejected, so I’m sorry that putting yourself out there online has led to that. There are times it can feel like making the effort to interact with others is more trouble than it’s worth, especially when it leads to anxiety or the feeling of being alone/ignored. Putting yourself out there can feel draining, thankless, and hopeless, especially if you’re someone who has depression. It’s not a futile effort but I understand how it can often feel like it is.

I also can relate to that issue of rarely finding someone who truly sparks my interest. They’re certainly out there, but can be hard to find. I’m not sure if you’re primarily looking for friends, looking for a partner, or both in this case, but despite how exhausting it can be to keep trying to find someone you connect well with, I still believe it’s worth the effort. When you do find someone who gets you, it’s utterly invaluable

I think people on the internet can sometimes be harder to interact with, because if they spend the majority of their time online, they’re a bit more likely to have more difficulties with socializing. Sometimes there will be communication disconnects that adversely impact a dynamic and in no way reflect on you, but still hurt nonetheless. Many of the people who choose to avoid open, honest discussion of emotions can suffer from this, and unfortunately there are more people like that online by nature of the fact that people who dwell online are more likely to be avoiding socialization and the life skills it can teach (often out of anxiety) because it’s less direct interaction than in person and thus affords them this ability more. There are certainly plenty of exceptions, but I’ve had falling outs with people online who never learned how to maturely communicate their thoughts and feelings and instead believed limiting themselves to online interaction somehow allowed them to bypass that stage of social growth.

All of this is to say, the people you interact with online are not necessarily going to be a completely representative sample of people in the real world. There will likely be a larger proportion of people who struggle to keep up social interactions for any number of reasons (whether it be due to anxiety, a social skill they lack, or something else).

That being said though, on the flip side, I tend to gravitate towards making friends with people online more than people in person because it’s easier to find introverts who are deep and interesting people to connect with. So it can also be the case that the people you find online end up actually being less representative of the general people you’d find irl, but in a positive way

“You can’t talk at all right now?”

Since you’re anonymous, I don’t know if we’ve interacted before or not, but if so, I apologize if I’ve been distant in DMs! My life has died down a bit now but the beginning of this year was very hectic and stressful in my professional life, and the regularity of my responses to conversations has been affected. I’m able to talk but I also prioritize having time offline to myself, so if I don’t respond immediately, please do not take it personally. I’m not ignoring you, it’s just that I might be busy and finding it difficult to keep up multiple conversations in free time when I may need time to socially recharge

Hopefully this helped answer your questions, and please take care of yourself ❤️