Oh this is going to be a sentimental and emotional answer for me. First of all, I keep myself alive. I cannot give away all the things and all the pain I have been through to give up, I cannot toss away all my dreams and leave everything behind. Second, my family; I don't ever wish to leave them and let them weep because I know that they'd be wearing black for such a long time if I were gone. Third, my closest ones including my lover and my friends; I feel like I still have so much to give them, so many love to spend, so many wishes to grow with. Above all, my God keeps me alive still so I will forego this journey in a well manner. I hope you stay well, too, Serenity.