Oh this is going to be a sentimental and emotional answer for me. First of all, I keep myself alive. I cannot give away all the things and all the pain I have been through to give up, I cannot toss away all my dreams and leave everything behind. Second, my family; I don't ever wish to leave them and let them weep because I know that they'd be wearing black for such a long time if I were gone. Third, my closest ones including my lover and my friends; I feel like I still have so much to give them, so many love to spend, so many wishes to grow with. Above all, my God keeps me alive still so I will forego this journey in a well manner. I hope you stay well, too, Serenity.

What keeps me alive is the abundance of blessings bestowed upon me by God, which I am fortunate enough to still utilize. As long as my breath continues, it signifies my existence. Despite the inevitable highs and lows of life, the unfulfilled desires, there is still room to romanticize every aspect. Even as I compose these words, my state of being is exceptionally favorable - indulging in the comfort of my plush bed, holding my cherished cellphone, enriched with amenities like the internet. These seemingly ordinary elements hold profound beauty, don't they? Regrettably, countless individuals are deprived of such sentiments. Hence, let us wisely cherish and value this precious life.