// non-con discussion

I see writing fanfics as very self indulgent and projection heavy, so me liking non-con smut really comes down to the combination of my personal kinks and the relationship that i have with myself. Im submissive and I love rough sex in fiction, all the manhandling and the painplay and the dirty talk that comes with it. And then i also believe that im fundamentally unlovable and i really only trust people as far as i can throw them (dont worry we’re actively working on that). Writing or reading non-con smut (!!in the specific way that i like it!!) gives me my ultimate fantasy: a hot dominant person that loves and wants me so bad that they dont care what i think (either of myself or of them), who knows me better than myself, and treats me well and gives me everything i want without me having to ask for it. Without me having to even trust them in the first place. Its obviously a huge unrealistic fantasy as this is not how anything in real life works! Luckily this is pure porn brained fiction and i can give myself a hot catguy that wants to shred me to pieces (sexually) and then also pamper and spoil me to death right after– All the while he doesnt expect me to do anything in return. I dont even have to admit (verbally) that i like it. I can just lie there and take it.
Thats the main appeal to me!! The ultimate loss of control. Pillow princess in the way where you dont have to ask for anything and you dont get to decide anything but its so clearly everything you specifically want (because its written by you).
Of course its also drenched in everything i like.. pred/prey and s/m and d/s dynamics and fearplay etc.. and theres many other non-con scenarios that ill enjoy writing and reading. I love a best friends situation where minho finally crosses the line and takes what he wants while jisung is whiplashed by his usually sweet best friend’s forcefulness !! I love minho manipulating and gaslighting and lying and coercing jisung to get what he wants too. I love somno so bad i need to write more of it…

So basically I love high-tension smut where youre put in a scared and overwhelmed characters POV. I love feeling helpless and on edge when its in a controlled environment like reading fiction !! And combined with my kinks, non-con is just the perfect breeding (ha) ground for it. I do also love cnc! But if the negotiation and talking-through-it part happens before the actual smut, i really cant get into the overwhelmed and scared mindset. Because a big part of me loving that smut is the aspect of being surprised… and if i already know that its pre discussed and consensual and there are no actual stakes, its harder for me to get surprised (Unless the fic is well written and includes minho doing something sexy and surprising during the pre negotiated cnc play without the reader anticipating it. Which is Absolutely delicious then. Dreamily sighing as i think of hammer minho) Even in my basically cnc fic i added external stakes (jisung fearing both minhos will kill each other) to make it more engaging and fun for me !! Meanwhile with non-con there are always very obvious stakes (usually jisung “not wanting” to get fucked). And i dont mind if by the end if it turns out it was cnc all along, or if it turns consensual, because by then i got what i wanted out of the experience: forced submission and high-tension smut and emotional whiplash and loss of control and delicious dirty talk and (ideally) lots of manhandling and force.. Etc …

Oh and when it comes to reading non-con from minhos pov.. i think that a shaking trembling scared jisung whos crying and begging for mercy while his cock is hard and leaking is top 10 hottest things in existence. Its really fun to read and write a non-con minho pov (even if you dont like projecting on the dominant role!) because its a very unique type of mindset. Incredibly taboo and unhinged but also sooo hot with the way he knows what he wants and deliberately crosses lines to get it. The intentionality of knowing what he’s doing is fucked up but knowing jisung even better to understand this is ultimately for this own good.. His bonedeep need for control and need to own jisung is delicious to write. And i love it if he feels a little guilty for his actions! But i love it way more if he Doesnt feel guilty. While jisung is drowning in guilt and shame about how much he liked being fucked, minho is unabashedly being himself and doing what he wants .. that type of confidence and self-assurance is obv completely unrelateable to me. Which is why its exciting and fun to be in his mindset, since its a new experience, and since its an experience you can only have in fiction! Godddd i love minho thinking something insane and unsettling but so sexy. Or saying it. Thats why i fucking love my library drabble because i gasp out loud and slap my palm over my mouth whenever i read the “they’d blame you, jisung-ah” paragraph. The fuckign audacity of this man….. Dreamy sigh …
Ohh and to me its important to portray minho’s actions as something he’s very aware of. Accidental non-con is fun and i will write it!! (and i have written it, as minho isnt fully clearheaded in my omegaverse non-con fic) But it hits even harder when minho is cunning and sly and everything he does is purposeful– Because it means that him wanting and loving jisung is also purposeful. Idk it makes sense to me. And its just hot when hes capable and competent and knows how to get what he wants…

Also i dont care for non-con which isnt tied to emotions. My minhos are highly interested or in love with jisung and want to keep him forever, which is often the catalyst for the non-con. (Because thats part of the fantasy! Being loved and wanted.) this might not be very obvious in every non-con that i’ll write, but its something that i'm always aware of when i write it.. And that makes a big difference to me.. And obv its always important to me that jisung likes it. No matter how much he cries and says he doesnt, it feels good and he likes it and he just cant (or wont ever) admit it. I know he does because ive got a huge projector shining on him at all times

Thank you for asking!! Ive previously written about this in full length and youll find even more thoughts there. If you have more specific questions please dont hesitate to ask, I really really love talking about this soo much…thank you … !!