Lost Love · 2mo
Konsepnya udah kayak backstreet ya. Interesting prompt… HAHAHA. Please don’t be sorry. I still thank you for letting me talk to you here. I was literally crying myself to sleep last night, but I can say today was better. Still feeling awful with a veeeery heavy shoulder, but I’ll manage. Don’t forget to eat, pwease! Hectic banget ya weekdays-nya?
To respond to your answer, yes, I will still wish them the best despite everything. I’m not going to blame them for leaving; they owe me nothing. Yet, I always find a way to blame myself for it (sigh) (kebiasaan jelek) (jangan ditiru)
On the other hand, I wonder if you’d fancy talking and sharing about life and experiences while we hold hands, or me sitting on your lap, asking never-ending nonsense questions, because that’d be lovely, no?
Backstreet banget engga tuh hahaha. Terus ketemu diem-diem ya, atau waktu saling lihat-lihatan saya boleh kedip genit engga? 😁 Then don't thank me either, it is totally fine, you can talk to me whenever you want. I am glad, at least there was a day that treated you well even though you still feel heavy. I hope tonight bring more peace and let you sleep with a lighter heart. Thank you for the reminder! I have been eating on time lately I always eat on time (although I forget and get tired to do so sometimes). Weekdaysnya sempat sibuk banget kemarin-kemarin karena sempat ada urusan di akhir bulan yang bikin beberapa hal ketahan, tapi sekarang udah aman!
Maybe after everything that has happened, it is time to be kinder to yourself, treat yourself more gently, and try to stop blaming yourself, even though I know that blaming ourselves is the easier option to do because there is no one to blame or we don't want to hurt anyone but ourselves. I understand how fucked up this may be, even though I don't know exactly what you must be feeling. I will wish you all the best, mm?
Even just thinking about it makes me feel warm and happy, why not do both? I would happily rub your hair while you sit on my lap, listening to you babbling about what's going on between us.
