mindbreak is pretty good!! i love do love the idea of thoma going through such intense sexual torture that his mind just has to come up with some way to cope with it… even if that means accepting his role and tricking himself into believing that he wants it :^) he’s so used to be stuffed full 24/7, even when they’re not even using him they maybe strap him to a machine to keep him occupied, maybe force feed him aphrodisiacs so he’s always painfully turned on. combined with lack of sleep his mind just can’t take the constant stimulation and pain after a while. that and them taking out all of their most depraved fantasies on him, getting more and more intense after they have him for a week or two and realize they can really do anything, see just how far they can go before it ruins him completely.
by the time he returns home ayato just has to keep him in his room all time and try to keep him satisfying by fucking him often… he feels so terrible that it’s this way but thoma is so lost and miserable without it…

it just gets easier with age and exposure honestly, by my mid-20s i stopped caring. i know the brain is supposed to be fully developed by 25 so i imagine maybe that has to do with it. of course, someone 18-21 is capable of distinguishing fantasy and reality too, but at that time in my life i definitely struggled more with believing my fantasies said something about me as a person (they don’t).
it also helped me to be around like minds or share my fantasies with other people who are interested in the same things, especially since i am asexual and this is the only way i really engage with my sexual interests at all. what actually finally broke down my last barrier was a fanfic i read that catered to my tastes so specifically i was just in awe. knowing that someone else posted that publicly without shame, and how much i enjoyed it, convinced me that sharing and posting my own very specific fantasies might appeal to somebody else in the same way.
so tl;dr time and exposure is what will eventually teach your brain that sexual fantasies are fine and harmless.
just continuously take stock of how you’re feeling and what is or isn’t working for you, and if you’re concerned about hypersexuality and how that may affect your propensity to be drawn to certain content, or if you feel it may cause you to seek real life risky or unsafe sexual encounters, i would suggest talking to a professional if possible.

(2/2) theres some other people from mond (and from all over teyvat tbh), both men and women, so they kind of learn to look out for each other... so they get by even though the customers are complete lowlives who are as rough and horrible as one can be. since the place is illegal, there are no repercussions. so this goes on for quite while until the yashiro comission discovers the place and shuts it down lmao this is why thoma will forever be grateful to the kamisato family

yessss i love pretty much any version of this where thoma doesnt get rescued right away and suffers in sex slavery for some time. hes so young too but they dont care one bit, hes got holes he can take cock. the other prostitutes feel extra protective of him because of his age but due to him being so young and cute and fresh hes really popular with the clientele. its so sad because he doesnt realize whats going on at first when someone offers to "help" him get a job... all his sweet naivety ruined fr. but it does help to have the other workers and he tries to make the most of it and believe he'll get out of the situation eventually... i like to imagine its not until after ayato becomes the yashiro commissioner that the establishment is shut down. maybe some other officials take ayato there as a "joke" (or blackmail) and try to force him to have sex with one of the prostitutes. (i think ayato would refuse, though i also do like ayato being forced to "rape" thoma).

when he shuts it down, its clear that thoma has nowhere to go and would probably end up back in sex work again even if he chose to do it this time because at this point he doesnt really have any other skills or experiences to get a legitimate job. not to mention he doesnt have any legal paperwork to be in the country. so ayato offers him a job and help him sort out his documents (or help him get back to mondstadt safely if he no longer wishes to stay in inazuma). despite what hes been through, thoma still is a bright and optimistic person and nobody would be able to guess his history. and nobody who is aware dares to talk about it, either. nor is he really the kind of person that became tougher due to trauma, but having a sense of purpose and duty to the kamisatos gives him something to make order out of and feel like his suffering wasnt in vain because he ended up in the right place.

i literally love him sm like… there’s so many flavors… child bride thoma whose husband spends their wedding night breeding him until he passes out (and then some more), he might be confused and hurt a little but he wants to make his new husband happy and be a good and obedient little wife. he gets to rest through his pregnancy of course and because he is young and pregnant and fertile his husband is very pleased with him and he has a good life as a little broodmare.
but rn i’m thinking about servant/maid thoma getting raped by daddy kamisato though… he thinks thoma is too young to get pregnant (at least that’s what excuse he uses when his wife finds out and asks why he was so careless). soo he gets kicked out of the household and maybe sent to a smaller family to work as their servant. they don’t believe him getting knocked up is a good excuse to have a lighter workload so he has to struggle through his pregnancy on his own while still trying to keep up with enough tasks that they won’t fire him. scrubbing the floor on his hands and knees like a pregnant little cinderella. or maybe he can’t manage that, so the new head of household allows him to have fewer tasks if he services him in other ways (letting him fuck raw since it’s not like thoma can get double knocked up). big rough hands on thoma’s slim little hips with his big round tummy ready to pop any day.. so cuteeee…

djfjgidjdjd i don’t really have any inspired or original thoughts about it, i mostly only like a few specific scenarios and mostly noncon
i like pissing inside because i like p much any kind of insertion/filling/inflation… but it’s super good and humiliating like the victim getting fucked and then feeling the warm stream inside them and being helpless to do anything and just feel sick and disgusted. shoving their cock deep down their throat and pissing is good too :) holding their head super firmly all the way to the base and they have to choke and gag as their mouth is being used as a urinal
or in general the victim getting pissed on bc they’re as worthless as a toilet to their rapist… just a rag to soak up fluids.
bc i like inflation i also like omo for the victim too where their bladder is super full and then they get fucked/have objects inserted in them while their stomach is all full and bloated.
yeah i think that’s most of my thoughts about piss lel

djfjfjfjdjd i want to make this shota thoma so i’m sorry if that’s not what you’re going for but it’s so good bc he would be young and easy to take advantage of… he doesn’t know how to say no and maybe it’s a group of older boys so he’s scared to protest anyway. and they get more and more bold with touching him bc he’s just sitting there taking it. one stands next to him and pulls his cock out and grabs thoma’s hand and forces him to jerk him off, while another one stands being him and shoves their hand down his pants and fingers him. calling him such a little whore and slut. ppl are aware of what’s going on but don’t want to get involved and maybe they’re getting off to it too bc he’s such a cute boy he was really asking for it❤️❤️