thank you for that!! i am soooooo sorry to disappoint you with this but the process of writing it was arduous as hell. i am a very reluctant smut writer. every time i have done it, it has pulled my teeth out in the doing of it. i just get very technical about the logistics of it, the limbs and positions and spacing and get very caught in my own head. add to that, theee worst stretch of work in the months since may (still ongoing) and i had literally no time and no energy. i wrote this the week of posting after begging for an extension. sorry for the rant!! i suppose the only positive i can offer right now is that im very proud of myself for coming up with the link to carson's glass essay and going through with it. without that reference, i'd have been lost at sea completely. that reference is what tided me over and raised the wordcount probably, because it forced me to write multiple sex scenes instead of just the one breakup scene to actually sketch out what i was trying to say re: nahyo's relationship.