it's not stupid at all!! gidakata is my old ao3 acc! she's still up, i'm just not active on it anymore (i even added "i've moved accounts!" on the acc profile!). there was an original reason i switched accounts, but it ended up not really mattering lol. on top of that- i felt like i had fucked around on my ao3 too much, constantly deleting stories, orphaning/anonymizing them etc to the point where people just expected me to delete my works within the month lol... and while i grew a lot on that acc i will never be unthankful for it, it stressed me out too much to keep going. 2024 has been ridiculously hard, i need my hobby to be something i still enjoy, ykwim?

im really trying hard to be not such an insane perfectionist nowadays. i think that's most important. at some point i had between 60-100 fics uploaded and i proceeded to purge more than half of it so my acc would always have around 20 fics (idk why this number). i couldn't upload for other fandoms, the way the fandoms were listed bothered me too much. there were so many fics i wanted to take down, but didn't, because moots and other ppl loved them- and it bothered me so much i would try to drown them out w more fics (that i ended up not liking, circling back to the beginning of this paragraph). overall i'm happier now, when i'm stressed i'm able to not take it out on my ao3.

oooohohoho please...

the first that comes to mind is how pent-up they are when it comes to physical affection. mr "i'm not big on physical affection" hyunjin who's just bursting with cuteness aggression every single time he sees jeongin. minho who tries to be reserved about it but succumbs to the same fate. jeongin who REALLY- he's not a touchy person-!! but occasionally the touch starvation gets to him, and he knows hyunjin's claims are more to comfort him than anything.

and on that note, i think hyunjin will often be the loudest in the room about his preferences (even if they're not true) in attempts to make his boyfriends comfortable, since communication is minhyangs weakest point. its a hit or miss, because sometimes he's trying to dismiss his own comfort/wants in favor of his boyfriends (something which doesn't go unnoticed by either of them, at different points), but he's the only one who tends to be the most straightforward in the moment about what he wants, and i think that results in a lot of his "i TOTALLY like sweet coffee!!" (<--- is a iced americano drinker)-isms, because he wants his bfs to be able to function without stress- a lot of which they cause themselves simply just by overthinking tbh. he rlly can't hide the fact that he is like. an extremely picky eater or just very specific about things, so unfortunately his attempts don't last long. but he tries.

minho knows one or both of boyfriends aren't going to be fans of a lot of his hobbies (fishing, hiking, camping, etc) but they insist on it because they both value quality time in a sense and hyunjin is also a massive romantic and it results in hyunjin VERY MUCH trying to romanticize the date while jeongin is squirming every .5 seconds trying to adjust. they compromise, somehow. most dates are just for hyunjin and sometimes jeongin to be indulged anyway. i feel jeongin is more of a "i find romance in the every day things" kind of person and minho simply would not be able to decide on an appropriate way to determine/show his love and they would both find things like a formal full on date incredibly awkward- but again, they indulge hyunjin.

THEY ARE BIKE/CAR MEN!! im not over b me hyunho and y'all know i like putting jeongin in a car and making him drive around. but anyway. i think an au where at least 2/3s of hyuninho are gearheads or like... a racer au or smth is in order. im thinking of hyunjin's bike... mmm....

jeongin has love hate relationships with the house animals. he gets jealous of them, he talks to them like they're people, he's gotten kicked out of bed by both the cats and the dog multiple times and doesn't understand how his boyfriends don't. he begrudgingly makes deals with doongie on the daily for more sofa space. kkami barks at him to go outside simply because kkami wants his attention. and hyunho baby their pets so he can't ever say no to them. he LOVES the cats & kkami but... lord are they... certainly his boyfriend's pets...

im sure i have more locked and loaded but these are all that are coming to mind now while i wait for my tea to boil op thank u sm for indulging me <333