honestly WHY are we not overstimulating kaveh more often? i need him pliant. this is the only place where can forget about all his sorrows & problems. this is where he can relax. this where he doesn’t have to pretend—in alhaitham’s arms. thinking about the implications of dacryphilia as well… because kaveh will not cry in front of anybody; this is where kaveh draws a line. if the tears must fall, it will happen when he’s alone, burst into weeping if anything gets heavy upon his chest in the secrecy of his own room. there will be signs (soft and flushed skin; maybe a tear stopped, in trance of interrupted action like waxed droplets on madonna’s cheeks). he hides his feelings so well when confronted with the world that keeps putting him to the proof. not with alhaitham, though. with alhaitham, he will let all that go. he needs it. he deserves it. this is why alhaitham HAS that kink in the first place too. to be the only one to see kaveh like this… oh.