someone from three years ago told me that recovering from grief is not something i can earn in a day. it takes months, or even years to do so. but hey, in the end of every story, there will always be new beginnings. you will soon realize that grieving or not, life still goes on. and as cliché as it sounds, time heals. it does. take this as an example. it's been almost 20 days ever since you asked this question which means almost three weeks had passed. answer me honestly, how are you now? is the sadness still clinging onto you or is it slowly but surely decreasing as time goes by? whichever the answer might be, know that in the end, you would still be alright. no matter how much burden the pain of grief weighs you, just remember what i'm about to say, "there is no rush when it comes to healing. nothing and nobody is chasing you in the process. you have plenty of time to recover. if it still hurts, then cry and cry hard until it hurts no more. until you can no longer grief. until you find solace." lastly, i hope you're doing well now, jade. ♡

i'm overwhelmed with the love you gave me (in a good way) and even though it's not an obligation for you to do the best for me, but you still want to try. how come someone as sweet as you even exist, angel? you are unreal and i can't explain it into words but, again, you are unreal and it's a miracle i get to meet someone like you. i wish for nothing but to send the exact amount of love to you, or even more. i wish i could shower you with words that are beautifully written, just like how you wrote yours. i wish i could appreciate you in the biggest way possible. even now, angel, my intentions on bringing you longer paragraphs appeared yet i'm never good with word. in fact, i suck when it comes to words. i worry that i couldn't reach your expectations of me and i also worry that i couldn't present you the same 'positive impact' you've been presenting me

so, angel, please tell me how should i be a good friend to you. tell me how should i respond to your endless kindness? i'm speechless. you left me in awe and i'm still unable to think of what words suits best to respond. i'm.. lost.. but seriously i wouldn't mind being lost if the cause is you! angel, again, i should be the one to thank you. for being the best person ever, the most beautiful creature God has sent to me. thank you, really. i feel like my 'thank you' is not even enough but i hope you can feel it. i hope you can sense how pleased i am of your delightful existence

i saw you sending me some birthday wishes! angel, my prettiest most loveliest angel. little did you know, you're the one who has been bringing me bundles of joys, happiness, and fulfillment. i, too, will be looking forward to making more memories alongside my angel! {needless to ask, angel. revealing yourself on my birthday would be the most amazing gift} i can't wait to meet you, my angel with never-ending words of affirmations. i'm excited, i truly am ₊˚⊹ ♡

:( my dearest angel, i never thought you would pay much attention to the things that i've posted yet you're here, praising my voice. letting me know how much you enjoyed hearing me sing. oh, angel. i may have said this a couple of times already but your messages always calms me down. your presence on my retrospring, always calms me down. it eases my worries, it shooes away any anxious thoughts i've been having and it makes me a hundred times more grateful to have you here. i'm ... still amazed by your choice of words. really. i'm fully amazed by how blessed i am. and how loved i am because of you.

angel, you bring me a love that pours its way everywhere. you bring me a love that is irreplaceable—unlike no other. you bring me such joyous reminders. you chose to send me constant messages. how much has it been since the first letter you've sent? could this be the third, or it be the fourth? anyways, your existence makes me feel alive i feel like i'm truly loved and valued by an exquisite creature like you.

mhm! i'm sure of it. you are beautiful, i can tell that. and this world deserves to notice your beauty. everybody deserves to know that i, emily, met the loveliest angel. with or without wings, you are still, and forever my angel! i'd love to gatekeep you so bad but, hey, i choose to show you off to every single one of my mutuals who might be reading this. ueee. i'm legit gonna shed a tear if you appear with those heartwarming words again. (but seriously please do! after all, your presence is what i now look forward to whenever i open my retrospring) ㅠㅠ

please also take extra good care of yourself and always keep in mind that even when nobody appreciates you, I DO. i will be the #1 person who loves and values you all my life. i will be a friend, a best, reliable friend to you on both your highs and your lowest days. only if you're okay with that, of course. last but not least, i'm proud to call you my angel. thank you for existing, for being here. you, yourself, is more than enough to light up this evening

a day before my birthday and i already got the best paragraphs coming from you, angel. imagine how lucky it is to be me!

hello again, angel! reminder that yours are the ones that made my whole day better. anyways i'd like to apologize if my replies were not as quick as you imagined. eventually, after yesterday's activities, i slept for approximately sixteen hours so pardon the tardy response. and the same goes to you, i also look forward to the things we would do and accomplish together. just imagining us talking about the loveliest nor simplest things already excites me. there's no rush, my dearest angel. you may show up whenever you'd like since i'm willing to wait. and, please, don't thank me! you've been showering me with your endless love and tenderness repeatedly. it's an obligation for me to do the same {or even more than that} so, until we meet, please be well. please stay healthy. as for the most important part: be happy, angel. ♡

good aftie-noon, my lovely angel. and happy sunday too! reminder that there's no need to worry because i've read your sweet, long message already! but i've been a little busy today, so i don't have much time to respond or even re-check my retrospring. and as for last night, all i did was changing my retrospring theme and that's all. perhaps my energy went low? i'm sorry, angel! oh and, TMI, as i'm typing this, aku masih di mobil. tenang aja, ya? aku janji, as soon as i got home your love letter will be responded immediately. don't forget to consume your meals properly and may this sunday brings my precious angel nothing but happiness!

to me, angel, your message is one of the kindest most precious thing above all that i've ever received. it warms my heart just as much as mine did to you, and i'm more than glad knowing the feeling is mutual. also, angel, don't you think that the one who should be grateful to see you composing such lovely messages is me? i mean—come on. look at you. your kindness and everything in between is UNREAL. too good to be true. it's indeed heartwarming to know that i could at least give your sincerity something in return. such as, my paragraphs, my words! those may not mean much to people but i hope you're aware that i think thoroughly on what and how could i respond to you. how should i string the most beautiful words only to assure you that i, too, feel the exact same way as how you're currently feeling.

dearest angel, whoever you are behind this hidden anonymous message, know that you must be valued. and that you deserve to be valued, to be respected, to be loved, and most importantly: to receive all forms of loving that i am able to present to you. angel, you've written enough. no, more than enough! i'm this close to crying my heart out because never once have i thought that someone like you would come along and toss me letters {since it's your second time visiting my retrospring so i see it as: Letter From Angel Pt. 2} you know, i'm entirely blessed to see you here. to read your endearing letters up until now.

again, my sweet, lovely angel. thank you for also making my day a hundred times much better than before. i may not know what good deed i've done in the past to be gifted with your epistles. but, still. i owe you tons! me too, angel. i am also looking forward to know you better as time goes by and especially to know your identity, since it {still} gets me wondering and becoming all curious. yes, yes! i agree! let us both form a closer bond and a wonderful friendship from now on!

with all the endless love from me to you,
emily ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ ♡

i swear an ANGEL just visited my little retrospring and i couldn't react properly somebody please help call 911 cause i, am, about, to, faint. due to this cuteness. AAA. okay seriously though—hello to the loveliest anonymous slash guardian angel, i am more than happy to welcome you here! i've finished reading the wholesome paragraph you wrote above. is it for me, love? is it truly for me? because i'm in TEARS, i am literally in tears, thinking that even a 'thank you' would not be enough to ever repay these heartfelt words.

sender, i wouldn't want to force you to show yourself if you think that it's embarrassing and if you still haven't had the courage to show yourself yet. however, i can't deny the fact that i sure am curious. to know specifically about who and why did this angel decided to spare their precious time only to write a paragraph for a stranger like me {said that you hoped for us to be friends so i assumed we're not mutuals yet. do correct me if i'm wrong!} last but not least, thank you for lighting up my day. my inbox is forever open so whenever you feel like showing up, please, don't hesitate. i love you already! (♡´𓋰`♡)