Wandering Heart · 11d
Islan, actually I hate to tell you about this like hate it so much but if I keep it for too long it will getting worse like there's something stuck in my heart... I felt dilemma to tell you, but I remember the chance did not come twice because you might deactivated your retro account sooner or later. Whether I want it or not I have to tell you. This is going to be very long...
Islan, I know this is wrong but what really happened is that I secretly had feelings for you for about two years, right until I wrote this. I don't know when our session was when I started to have feelings for you but what's for sure is I really like you. Sorry, I shouldn't say this. But your presence always appears in my head even in my dreams. I love how nice you talk to people and being support system to everyone. You always being kind and without I realized it's my weakness. Without I realized I bring your presence appears on my song I listened whether its sad or happy song, it feels nice yet so hurt. Ah, I think I'm causing new wound in my heart (Please don't be sorry, this is my mistake). I always failed everytime I tried to get you out of my mind. It'so hard, Islan. Just thinking about you makes me miss you more. Sorry if I'm being rude... I already know how you'll respond after knowing all this and you don't need to feel burdened because I understand how you feel. I appreciate whatever your response is and I'm glad to know. Sorry if this bothers you. Just by expressing my feelings all this time has made me relieved. May your day always be good, I always pray that you always live well. I will try to stop falling to you as best as I can....hopefully I can. Once again I'm sorry, Islan, this is my fault.
Hey, it took me quite a while to finally draft a proper response to your heartfelt confession. First of all, please do not blame yourself for having such feelings. Despite the nature and unwritten law of this realm, you are just human with a tender heart who has every rights in the world to develop feelings. Jadi jangan minta maaf sama aku atau nyalahin diri sendiri gitu yaaa.
Two years aren't short, so thank you for seeing me so fondly for those period of time, but I am so sorry if I have become the source of your pain in any way ever since your feelings grow. I hope you know receiving such a confession is always a heartwarming moment, but I also hope you know that I wish there is a way that I could take away the pain that you've associated with such feelings.
If it has been two years, then I know for sure that we have been happy together and we have loved quite a lot during those period of time. Maaf yaaa kalau aku ada salah yang bikin kamu sedih, directly or indirectly. I hope you know that I see you fondly too, eventhough I am still blurry about who you might be, but I can say in all honesty that I have never loved in any way less than being genuine. So just remember that I do hold such affection for you too, eventhough there is nothing I can offer you to house your feelings for now.
I wish you well and I wish you happiness, always. I hope all the love that you have shared and given to others will find its way back to you in tenfolds. I hope you won't blame yourself for what have grown in your heart, I hope you know that I appreciate it. I hope you know that there is always a special place in my heart where our memories are safely kept too.
P.S. I won't be sharing this on my timeline to protect your privacy, so if you would like me to remove this after you're done reading, just let me know too, okay?
