i’ll define this as someone whom “i consider passed away”, can i? because i definitely have somebody in mind. i prevent myself from piling up hatred towards someone who viciously ruined my life by considering them dead, so everything they do in the present won’t even touch my humane sympathy. as for ways i dealt with it… i think that’s undefined to me. i carried on with life, with pain, with unfairness, with heavy heart and mean thoughts that keep telling me i’m worthless; as well as my guts that turn the hatred into power, which is an encouragement to me that nobody could ever hurt me that way again. it took me a quiet long time, i still carry on with the remaining trauma even after three years, but what’s sure now is that i’m unbreakable now; my heart won’t break when i don’t give it away.