i have nobody in my life to share this with so i wanted to share with you! i'm so excited today bc i'm transmasc with such severe dysphoria that i developed vaginismus, but i desire penetrative pleasure really bad and i've shed a lot of tears of frustration bc im so scared of my own genitalia that i haven't been able to look at it or touch it my whole life aside from clitoral stimulation (im 22)...well today, after a few months of warming up to it slowly, i was able to get half of a regular sized dildo in me and it didn't hurt!! AND it felt rly good!! and any discomfort i felt didn't scare me, and im already excited to try again!! part of me wishes i had someone to help me or talk me through it but i'm all the more proud that i did this on my own!!