gumdrops · 11mo
Honestly, the first betrayal my friends did to me, I sucked it up bc I was too pussy to say anything & I didn’t want to lose the only friends I had & I eventually got over it (I do not condone this 😭) the second time it happened (same friend group) I was too busy with uni & just immediately blocked & went on with life bc my only focus was passing my classes. All in all, you don’t have to forgive people who did you wrong even if they apologize, you can acknowledge the apology & leave it at that, but there is also nothing wrong with accepting the apology. As for trusting ppl, that’s tricky bc you more or less have to work through /your/ trust issues that, unfortunately, the betrayal bestowed upon you. If you’re the type to hold off on trusting right away, that is totally valid and honestly something I do as well, but if all you’re doing is holding back and never fully trusting when ppl want to be genuine friends with you, then that’s where it becomes tricky. Trusting ppl, especially when you’ve been dirty, is hard and it’s something you kind of have to slowly work on one step at a time.
Sorry for my omg ass rambling in your retro 😭
hi !! sorry this is very late but i did read your response. in fact, i read it over and over since you sent it but didn't know how to reply because i was still in an angry headspace and i didn't want to project my feelings onto another person. also, please don't worry about the length of your response because it really means a lot to me that you took to the time to create it and talk to me 🫶🏾🫶🏾 honestly, the way i feel about them has changed a bit throughout these months and although i can't forgive them just yet, i'm trying to extend myself grace and honor my emotions. trusting people is especially something i still struggle with these days but again, i'm sure time will help me open up more. i definitely wish i could jump to the end of healing from it but taking my time has helped me so much in understanding why it went down the way it did. idk if i mentioned it before but thank you so much for your advice/sharing your experience. i'm really sorry you had to go through what you did and i at least hope you're doing much better now 😭💕💕💕 but yeah, life sometimes sucks and unfortunately shit happens and we have to deal with the ugly aftermath of it all. now i'm rambling, i apologize 😭 anyway, i hope you have a wonderful day or night or evening wherever you are and thank you for sharing something so personal, i really do appreciate it~~ mwaa
