hi river, i don’t know if you’ll ever see this but i’ve been wanting to send this message ever since you announced your departure, i hope i won’t be too incoherent but here i go. i still think about the impact you’ve had on me and this fandom and i’ll keep missing you for as long as i’m a part of it, maybe even after that too. i’ve said it before but you were the reason i made my account and got into rz rps, your fics were just that amazing. i still wish i reread them before you took them down, but i couldn’t have known this would happen. the day i became mutuals with you i giggled and kicked my feet like a little girl, i was still too shy to interact with you, so instead i sent most of my messages here like now. i still think about your stories every time i listen to comfortable liar, kimdracula, sexy to someone, 10-20-40 and other songs i’ve started to associate with them. maybe i’m being too sentimental about kpop yaoi but your works made me really happy and find a new community (although it’s a mess now…). i hope you’re doing well and i hope i can read one of your books off the shelves one day. call me selfish for still wanting you back but i just can’t let go of your writing!! ily, take care goregrief sama