anon · 22d
river when i tell you i have been looking for you FOREVER. i don’t know if you’ll ever see this but i regret never messaging you to compliment you or commenting on your work, i used to be really shy to comment but after you i realised if i liked something enough to read and appreciate i should let the author know.
i read your wnbn/sngchn f1 and actor au and when i tell you those two fics have seriously changed the trajectory of my life. i never really saw them as a shipping duo but after reading the actor au and then waiting on the f1 au, i am so glad i looked more into their dynamic and appreciated how sweet they are with each other. i don't listen riize anymore after everything that happened to snghn but your fics were one thing i always came back to. And i was really surprised when one day it all disappeared and i searched for the fics all over ao3 but it took me a while to accept that the fics were gone. the worst part was that it took me forever to remember your username but today it just came to me and i was like ??? and searched on twt and I FOUND YOU! i read your pinned and it explained everything. all i can say is that im sorry for what you’re going through and how hard it must be feeling that way, i wish i remembered you at the right time so i could have messaged you that everything will be okay.
i wish i took the time to comment under your work because your writing and characterisation were so memorable and beautiful. i wish i could articulate myself better but im just glad to know you’re okay and i finally found an answer. it only took me a few months to remember but better late now than never yk. after you removed your fics i just never went into the riize side of ao3 but would occasionally come back to see if it was back but it wasn't and i just moved on in a way bc i knew i would never read anything that good again.
i seriously wish you all the best and all the love in the world. your contribution to this fandom will always be remembered by ME because you made every difference to me with your work. i love you and take care❤️
okay hi i usually don't post my retro answers anymore bc i don't wanna bring attention to them for the most part but i'll do it here in case that you see my reply on twitter... so. i have put up 3 of my fics back on ao3 and they're all still under the name goregrief! you can still view and read the two stories you liked so much :-) thank you for keeping me in your heart for so long like this and finding me again, and i am doing better for the record! i hope you can still enjoy the stories with all the emotional context of all seven of them together ❤️ thank you!
