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hi gwen, idrk why i'm writing this but i read kim suhwan vs the world a few months ago and it's been stuck in my head ever since. it really resonated with me... ig i relate to your peyz a lil too much lmaoo. i keep finding myself rereading the fic and constantly thinking about it. so i guess i'm writing this message cause i wanted you to know how much i love this fic, it's so good in a way i've never felt about any other fic. extra question: how do you find the inspiration to write fics? cause i have all these ideas in my head but i can't really get them out on paper or a doc. i also find planning out the plot kinda of difficult, any tips? anyways, have a great day!
hello anon and im so sorry for the delayed response!! aagh kim suhwan vs. the world is honestly such a special fic to me (i shed tears when i finished it because it just,, meant so much and it was so weird to be done it since it took up a good 3-ish months of my life i guess??) so this submission was honestly very heartwarming to read :] my peyz in there is uhh very ooc from irl peyz but... shit just got out of hand and i love him regardless. hey, its okay, as an rpf writer i accept some of my characterizations are hella wrong. but thank you so much again for loving the fic 🥹🥹🙏 it means a lot to me
when it comes for inspiration to write i honestly... struggle a lot too LOL. when i get ideas i try to jot them down somewhere, even if its just 1-2 lines (i have docs upon docs of just. that. some of which i will never write, some which i will; that's just the way things go!) and to tell you a secret i honestly also just. don't plot out a lot. oftentimes my fics start out with one or two scenes i have rotting in my brain, before i decide to flesh it out. that basically means i write more random scenes non-chronologically and eventually link them up, or as im writing or thinking i form a sort of outline in my head. like ksvstw at least started out with a plot idea of peyz having a one sided crush on peanut (whereas many of my other fics will literally just start out with dialogue) which was not even my idea but the person i gifted the fic for on ao3, nephrite! but my point is like... you don't need a plot to start writing. you can figure that out later; not a lot later, but it will come naturally. im not sure if my advice is helpful at all im so sorry shfdksf😭 i guess its just a learning process! again i still struggle with motivation to write too,, but you got this anon i am rooting for you!!
hello gwen!
i want to start of by saying that i love your works! some of them are my biggest favorites, not just as t1/lolrpf fics but as in fanfics overall. my favorite ones by you are the 'we just need some time together' and 'say you'll remember me' series. the slowburn and the angst really kept me on my toes ;-;
the reason im writing is because recently i saw a fanart for aml on twitter (@mikqa_XN2) and it somehow reminded me of an album i listened to years ago, made by an band that was formed by a couple of people from my high school. the album is called 'Det vi tänkte' (by Between The Lines) and the song lyrics from it gives a feeling of regret, mistakes you made in your youth that makes you question if you can go back to how things used to be. hearing the songs reminded me of your wooje, him leaving everything and everyone behind, how it haunts him and the mixed feelings he has for his hometown. aml hits close to my heart as similar to wooje, i also moved away from my hometown and has lost contact with almost everyone aside from family. the way you wrote him made him felt so real and alive and raw in his feelings. (alkjslhnduh)
'Det vi tänkte' album: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uwa4PGm4sM&list=OLAK5uy_kktLPc9uiwfO3gNhxwq2KKG_56J0GArVI&index=1
(FYI, the songs are in swedish. If you google their songs you can find the lyrics and translate them. i can otherwise try to translate them for you if you want)
just wanted to share about the album and the connection with aml that i made. I also wanted say that your works are always a wonderful treat to read. you have a way with your words and characterization of people that it feels like im watching a movie in my head when im reading. every time i see that you have posted something new makes me excited to see what michelin dish you have cooked up (yummy). keep up with your work!
(this essay-like ama is so scuffed, im sorry you have to read my scrambled eggs thoughts x_x)
okay so im like the worst person in the world because i have not been checking my retrospring and its. BEEN A MONTH??? im sooo sorry op. thank you so much for reading and enjoying my works hehe--i feel like a lot i wrote in early 2023 was fr just angsty slowburn but they do have special places in my heart.. ahh gumakeria and fakenut... never die.
and omg i went and i listened to the ep right away!! ALSO THE BAND WAS MADE BY PPL IN UR HS? THATS DOPE ASF! i looked at the english translation for the lyrics too, and wow i really see what you mean as it does remind me of aml too 🥹🥹 i liked all the songs but the 1st was my favorite--"När Vi Möttes Över Borden" just has such a chill vibe to it and i loove the vocals of the singer sm :') the way it just all builds up in the chorus is SO beautiful, and how the vocalist is almost screaming.. its so emotive. idk how scuffed the english translation i read was, but the heartache lyrics of "i am the one who never sleeps/who never keeps my promises" and "one day you might regret me" was so.. aaaaah. also the guitar break! SLAPS. my god.. this is a proper length for a song alright (5:40 yessir). but wow all of the songs were really good and by god the lyrics of "Vägen Hem" were so T-T heartbreaking and specifically reminiscent of aml as well... i feel like the genre and inner conflict people have with their hometowns is just so universal for people all around and its just something i love seeing in art as its truly just a part of growing up.
again i feel like u deserve so many apologies for the belated reply 😭😭 i feel so bad my god. i hope you do get to see this anon op, SHDFKJHSDFmalksjfd oops... but thank you so much for the music recs, i really enjoyed them!! and thank you so much for submitting this message <3
2 AM. Peanut coming out of Faker's room. Chovy coming out of Doran's room. Zeus coming out of Oner's room. They make eye contact. What do?
omg anon im so sorry for the late reply but i must say this ends in only one way. peanut chastising chovy, first off. that man is going to get the verbal berating of his LIFE. sorry not sorry but peanut does not support the choran agenda mainly bc his ass does not trust chovy one bit. and for good reason too. zeus is going to stand there incredibly awkwardly as he watches that go down. and then, additionally, because ZEUS is now in peanut's team, zeus is ALSO going to get yelled at. but this time because he left the dorms for a booty call or whatever and "oh my god that's SO irresponsible." please pray for chovy and zeus, they need help vs. the wrath of peanut. they won't even be able to get a word in edgewise about hypocrisy either. it's peanut, after all.
What if Canyon said "Heosu you're the only midlaner for me" and goes back to DK. They then sign a duo lifetime contract with Daeny as the notary. What will you do if that delulu happen Gwen? :D
first off. WHY IS DAENY THE NOTARY????????? second off. i would cry and like kms but then revive so i can watch them play together and win worlds together ofc ^o^ ideally in this delusionla universe that pedophile is off their team as well duh... <3
Are you going to write more maolan? I really want to know more about their story in ksvtw
hello hello!! sorry for the last reply, i got so used to not checking my retrospring i didn't. i def have more maolan fic ideas in my head, so its very likely ill write maolan, but i'm not sure if i'll continue their story from ksvstw. i'm thinking i could maybe write a second small spinoff for them, just to wrap up the end of their arc? but yeah, either way, i'm def going to be writing more of this ship :)
skibidi skibidi on the wall.. who is the most sigma of them all?
HUFFU WHEN I CATCH YOU
hello! i recently started getting into t1 and went down a rabbit hole of your fics! sorry i know you might be sick of everyone constantly mentioning it, but all my love has my whole heart, started listening to noah kahan just because of it and there is constantly an ache in my heart when i think about it … sobs … i went thru an EERILY similar experience as wooje with my family and i feel like your writing is extremely tender, it’s amazing that you can put these thoughts and emotions into words and those words are able to paint a beautiful picture of what love is. you took my heart and left a deep compression on it with all my love. sorry if that doesn’t make any sense aha.
we just need some time together is also one of my all time favs , it kept me up at night thinking about it for too long. minseoks internal dialogue just feels so real, his self esteem, his confidence is amazingly illustrated, and of course your exposition is so delicate and beautiful. CRIES …
im really invested in your new fic, i want your violence, and i usually never follow fics that are currently updating. i have so many questions .. in my brain keria is still happily in district 13 even tho i read your comments that you killed 3/5 of t1… cries again … im so so curious to what you have in store for us! finally i get to my question : how long will i want your violence be? am really curious about all the plot points you’ve brought up and its clear that you’ve planned this really well!
sorry for this long message. i adore anything you put out , your style of writing resonates deeply with me and i wish for nothing but happiness in your future !
okay first off i am never sick of love of my writing, aml or other, bcuz im a NARCISSIST!!!!!!! ... ok im kidding. but really, i never get sick of the love you guys give me because it truly means a lot and i think saying "oh boo everyone loves aml so much" is like.. first world problem much? LKJDSALKFJ. i love that fic!! so im very happy ppl love it too. noah kahan is literally amazing btw, IM SO HAPPY UR LISTENING TO HIM!! the stick season (we'll all be here forever) album is OFC incredible, but i personally looove i was / i am. wooje in aml is very special and im glad he and my writing can connect to you!! your comment made perfect sense to me :)
hsbfhsfh wjnstt is such a.. problem ?? child?? for me, or like i have a love/hate relationship with it.. i really do at the end of the day love it though; it was my first "major" fic project and means/meant (?) a lot to me. i think it could've been written better.. but i feel that about all my fics, so that's alright. i should really reread it one of these days. but i digress! im very glad you like it :]
as for i want your violence!! im so sorry i haven't been updating it, its bc im working on this OTHER fic rn, but anyway ill try and update it soon!! hopefully ur questions can be answered :] if not, then after the fic is finish u can always pop back in here again ..! (well, maybe on tumblr BCS. retrospring is shutting down but u catch my drift). anyway i actually have no clue how long this fic will be? just as a ballpark number, id say anywhere from 70k to 100k, maybe even more. this baby is gn be probably my longest fic.
no worries about the long message; i love long messages like this. thank you so much anon, and i hope you have an amazing day <3
Hi Gwen!
I hope you can give me advice: In the last few days a new author dropped a bunch of T1 oneshots... however, I have the strong feeling, they stole the stories from another fandom and just replaced the names. Some of the description of the physical attributes of the players are way of and in one of the stories the names of two characters of another fandom were randomly mentioned.
I am not sure if this is enough evidence and i am afraid of wrongly accusing someone of plagiarism. I don't know what to do :(
omfg im so sorry i didnt fucking SEE THIS. kfdsakjalkdsjf . but tbh, plagiarism is a rlly big issue, and you'd need like concrete proof to accuse someone. id say u pretty much have nothing unless u have proof of it/the fic possibly plagiarized. remember, characterization, while like fandoms do have collective headcanons, vary from person to person and as for the names...? im not so sure. but yeah, concrete proof is needed. :) hope u have a great day!
i was re-reading aml (im obsessed with it, tysm for writing it. it changed something within me) and i just cant help but wonder... how was guma's proposal? if you wanna share ofc, its just keria waited so long for it and my guess is that guma wanted it to be perfect, that's why i wonder how it was. there's no pressure to share if you have something or not<3
okay. so the thing is i have an aml gumakeria spinoff in the drafts that is the whole "8 times minseok asks minhyung to propose to him and 1 time he finally does." i will be written and out eventually. no promises when. im so sorry op but i don't wanna spoil on my rs. so... wait? (IM SO SORRY)
i'll be completely honest, the first time i saw all my love while hunting for one2eus fics, i didn't click it. i saw that it was about attending gumakeria's wedding and thought that oh maybe it's unrequited keriaxzeus. i was so so wrong (prolly cuz i dont read tags on ao3 💀).
it's been half a year since the last time i read all my love and it still consumes a part of my soul. it's been a year since i started college miles away from family and friends then became so homesick that i couldn't study. it's been a lifetime since i've longed for a home shaped like the almost-family in all my love.
i don't even remember the specific words written on the page when i read it, and i don't even remember the scenes that made me hyperventilate on my bathroom floor. but, i do remember every feeling i felt when i read your fic. from joy to sorrow, from dread to anxiety, and from peace to forgiveness, i had felt almost everything when it came to coming home after a whirlwind of change.
i had originally thought that all my love was just going to be another 2d love story with the normal amount of angst and confessions, but when i clicked on the title, i had realized my thoughts were rooted in the wrong assumptions. it was a love story, yes, but it was a love story that wasn't just romance. the love was familial, romantic, a devoted type of platonic, and community. after clicking on the title, i just couldn't peel my eyes away. it was everything i felt in that moment, in the confusing transition from my teen years to my adulthood. in just a few days of reading it, this story had made a nest in my heart and spread a warmth i hadn't felt in a full year.
the way everyone had forgiven and given wooje a chance after all he had done gave me hope that i would be forgiven for leaving my little sibling behind with our mentally recovering parents. the way minseok always checked to see if wooje had left reminded me of how i had watched my friends drift away from me one by one and how i'd occasionally pull them back for a day out. the way everyone loved in the fic made me look into a mirror and face the experiences i had long stuffed into the bottom of my lungs.
i was going through a lot of stuff when i finally clicked on your fic. i had recently suffered the loss of a pet, started college, and felt my friends drifting away from me. reading all my love felt like a hug after becoming numb. it was that warm feeling after you would stare into the abyss after crying your heart out. after feeling like i could no longer stand up, it felt like i could atleast put my feet firm on the ground again.
i thank you, so so much. not just for the wonderful story and the dedication to your writing, but also for the love you shared with me and your readers. the amount of love in your writing could probably fill every heart in this world and have extra in case anyone needed it. i hope you feel the same way and i hope you took some of the love for yourself as well. just from the way you write, you seem to be bursting with love.
it's like the universe let a star become human to share its warmth in the most comforting way. i hope you continue to write and love what you do for years to come and for the eternities that face you.
i give you all my love, gwen.
hey anon. i’m really sorry about the late reply on this—i first saw your submission on friday evening, and i’m typing this sunday and monday evening. i had to make a google doc and everything to write out exactly what i want to say. and i still can’t get through reading your message without crying. LOL
truth be told, i thought this was going to be a rlly funny ask when i saw the first paragraph!! i laughed so hard hearing about your keria/zeus assumption, and showed it to bebe (my beta reader), and then i calmed down enough to read the rest of your submission. and then i was like, oh this is. long. and so, so heartwarming that i cried tears of joy (not sadness!!! do not worry!!!)
to be honest, these days i’m reflecting more on my emotions and i just want to say i am very, very glad and grateful that you are here. i’m happy that my silly fic could impact you in the way it did. i never really foresaw how much love that fic would get, or how much love i would receive as a silly fic writer in general. i mean, when i started writing all my love, it was because my dad bought a stick shift and i learned how to drive one. (i stalled it so many times.) the very first scene i wrote was the one with hyunjoon and wooje in chapter one, when wooje drives the mustang for the first time in a long while. besides that, the idea for all my love had been floating in my head for a while—i knew i wanted to write a second-chance homecoming fic about returning back to your hometown after college. i was torn between two ships, onerzeus and bengifaker, but settled on onerzeus because that’s what bebe and ginger told me to do, and because i didn’t feel comfortable writing skt-era side characters since i didn’t know them as well. and i think that was the right choice. i mean, all my love has onerzeus written all over it. but it was that, plus my recent discovery of noah kahan and his deluxe album that just fit my ideas so well, which sort of formed the start of all my love.
in general, all my love became very, very self-indulgent. me and my dad’s music taste, the cars, the mechanic shop, the found family trope, making gumakeria get married. all things from me, that i love, that i want, or that i enjoy. i think for that reason it surprised me that so many people were attracted to it and loved it. but ginger tells me that’s why so many people love it in the first place—because i poured myself and the things i love into it. I MEAN I PUT JOJOPYUN IN IT FOR GODS SAKE JUST BECAUSE I LOVE HIM. but i don’t know. she’s smarter than me, so i’ll just take her word for it. and you are, too—you’re right when you say it’s a love story. ginger also used that wording before in the past while talking to me—bursting with love—and i showed it to her with a smile. wooje struggles with himself and his home and his family. i always made fun of the fact it’s a whole 13k before hyunjoon—the love interest—shows up in all my love, and i freaked out while writing chapter 3 that he talks to primarily minseok and sanghyeok at the start of it, but i feel like that in itself shows how much the other relationships matter. (huh. maybe i should add the zeus&minseok tag, zeus&faker, or the zeus&t1 tag.)
but i’m really happy this self-indulgent fic spoke to so many people, though. i guess love just shines through, or something.
it was the last paragraphs of your message that hit me the hardest. you have told me some of the kindest words i have ever heard. i never really get all that personal in my fic notes, or my twitter, but i’m certain i’ve mentioned my mental states vaguely. i wasn’t necessarily going through a lot when i wrote all my love, but i was battling depression, my father was battling cancer, and toward the end i got into a horrible car crashed that tanked all my mental progress in one day. (ironically, i ended up a lot like hyunjoon after his and wooje’s crash.) i’m kind of going through a lot right now and that’s why i cried after reading this submission. my depression has gotten much better, but i’ve entered a stage of grief since i lost my father to cancer last month. i got this retrospring submission on friday evening, like i said. saturday was his memorial. the whole week had been horrible for me; i was an emotional wreck—but then i saw your submission. and that was my warm hug, anon. i read it, and reread it, and bawled like a baby on and off for an hour. you seeing the love in my story and me means a lot. you called me a star—i’ve always loved stars. call me naive for believing in fate, but i haven’t had a retrospring submission in a month. so this means a lot to me. you mean a lot to me. i don’t think i’ll ever forget this message.
all my love is by no means a perfect fic, but it’s full of love. i love it, and many people love it. it—and all my writing, really—is meant to share joy and love from my little corner of the universe. i’m overjoyed that me and my fics can impact you like this. i love writing, i love my fics, and i love you guys. so thank you for reading and supporting and sending love. it truly means the world to me.
how are you gwen!
currently listening to sabrina and writing so im in a pretty good mood rn! tyty for asking and im sorry for the late reply orz
top 3 artists and songs from them you’ve been listening to lately
the way this is asked makes me cracked up im ngl!! ok top three artists (all time im assuming..?) is (god this is so fucking hard) arctic monkeys, the neighborhood, and sabrina carpenter. probably.
rn im reliving my middle school yrs w sabrina and listening to her evolution album on repeat (mirage has been my fav off that album!! since like forever!!) listen to the whole album i dare you.
for the neighbourhood, ive been listening to stargazing, compass and fallen star as of late. mwah i love them. stargazing is like the most romantic song of all time i think.
arctic monkeys will always be top all time aksjfdlkjsfd!! tranquility base hotel + casino is always in circulation.
Hey Gwen! Hope you’re okay. I just want to ask, if you know of any discord servers that are friendly that’s catered to T1 fandom? I would like to make more friends here
helloo anon!! unfortunately i dont know of any public discord servers that are t1 centered that i would recommend :( there's an lck discord server floating around, but it's not t1 centered. there's a t1 one as well, but it's sort of dead and i wouldn't particularly recommend it? very sorry about this!!
Who do you talk the most to in lolrpf community? Or gen T1 fandom space?
i mainly talk to the voices in my head, the rats in my room, and the odd creatures in my basement. also i have a handful of friends (freaks) who are orchestrating faker's downfall and uniting against peanut. we should bring back prohibition and get him to change his slutty alcoholic ways. sometimes i chat with chovy on his alt account (fun fact: he ships fakenut too!). ok fr tho i just bounce off the walls in my head and hide in a cave and talk about my ships and write. its unwell. im unwell. thank u.
hi gwen~ whats up lately?
nothing great! im struggling with some irl stuff right now, but im trying my best to write. really sorry about that guys, will try to publish asap. thank you for checking in <3
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