alright, i’m about to go crazy.

in my humble opinion, sbn is a true softdom at heart. i think that it's his default. with his role as a leader, i feel that he's more inclined to bring that always-looking-out-for-you attitude into bed, as well. but, in the rare instances that he so happens to want to be mean... oh, he's so mean. his versatility is almost dizzying. he's not the type of meandom that's rough. he's not harsh, doesn't spout whatever hateful words his rage-muddled brain can muster. he's.. apathetic. shows a level of disinterest and disgust that's enough to feel like bg's been stαbbed right through his chest.

i can just imagine it.. bg on sbn’s lap, resolute. touching sbn everywhere, anywhere he can reach. he has that puppy-brained expression on his face that he knows sbn loves. he puts on a show, his best one, just for him, and sbn won’t even look. sbn radiates drowsiness, like he’d rather be anywhere but here. like he’s bored, and it messes with bg’s pride, exactly how sbn expects. bg gets desperate, hasty with his movements. tries, and tries, whines and pleads. he wants to be looked at, wants just a sliver of attention from him. “hyung, please..” bg begs like he’s lost his mind, burying his face in sbn’s neck. the silent rejection makes bg want to scream.

sbn keeps it up, the painful nonchalance. it’s never easy, no. sbn wants to oblige, but there’s that incessant need to ruin bg like this, dumb him down to nothing but a sobbing mess. bg’s frantic, needy to the point of exhaustion. he makes do with what he has, grinds his pretty parts all up against sbn’s thigh. all it gets bg is a sharp inhale from sbn, but it’s enough to send him toppling over the edge. he paints sbn’s skin with his cum, and bg sobs, with heaving breaths, into sbn’s shoulder. bg’s shaking, trembling, and sbn finally decides that it’s enough for him. he starts with placing his hand on bg’s back, and bg’s eyes widen at the contact.

“baby, you came without me. one more, c’mon,” sbn whispers, gentle. they end up in their bedroom, sbn muttering silent apologies and i love yous into bg’s ear as he slowly fucks into him. “hyung’s so sorry, gyv-ah.. fuck..” and bg responds with low grunts, quiet mewls. it only takes a short while for sbn to reach his limit, as well, and sbn gets up from the bed to clean bg up. he tries to usher bg into the shower, but bg’s basically fallen asleep by then. they’re in each-other’s arms the entire night, and just as an extra apology, sbn wakes bg up with a blowjob :]