ourgh I was just looking it over and there's still a lot to write there. Big things happening this chapter though, and Tolkien is always such a delight to write. When writing his POV or focusing on him, I tend to think of him as Craig-like, but if Craig were actually as rational and in control as he thinks he is. When's ur birthday bb

Re: updates generally, here is some fuck ass statement no one asked for (except some in DMs):
You may have noticed I'm not cranking out Creek fics or chapters all the fucking time these days like I have been for the past 3 years. Behind the scenes, Sean and I are running Creek NSFW bingo, and I'm writing fics for the bingo and a Halloween exchange. Those will all go up late October/early November. Clearly I have also become fiendishly obsessed with Till Alien Stage's armpits quite suddenly (please feel free to send me asks re: what in the fuck I am talking about!!!)

In effect, I was starting to burn out on sp and I'm intentionally taking a step back to prevent it. I've been cranking too hard for too long, and honestly I'm not feeling the best about the fandom at the moment. sp twt's always nasty and tiring, and I'm only on twitter to view butthole art because tumblr doesn't have it, but the vibes got straight up rancid after they announced no new season 'til 2025

I think many in contemporary fandom have an endless churn mindset where they constantly want new "content" from the source and from fan writers/artists and it's just.. very unhealthy and stress-inducing, especially when not accompanied by the ability to take a breather and truly appreciate and digest things. Not to mention enjoy things with friends, share and uplift people's work, and see compelling new perspectives that make you appreciate your fuck ass blorbos differently, which is what fandom's all about to me. Twitter incentivizes this churn mindset because things move so quickly. It's easy to internalize that you're only as good as your last thing, that you are a brand, that the numbers determine your worth

In a way, I'm lucky that the numbers don't matter so much to me in the sense that I feel badly about my output no matter what. It feels worse to get no or very few comments/kudos for sure, but I don't like anything I do while I'm doing it and I struggle to read my own work. I write to soothe that itchy feeling and because I can. I get a lot of nice comments and they mean the world to me but I struggle to reply because I have debilitating social anxiety and self-esteem issues which makes it hard to be normal when inundated with positive feedback

I write constantly because I don't know how to say thank you. I keep writing and posting in lieu of slowing down and appreciating that anyone cares because part of me believes they're wrong to care, but I also don't want the possibility that anyone does to vanish. Then alongside the nice comments and my mental issues, I've also dealt with tons of stupid bullshit from people in this fandom with emotional problems who don't have the decency to take it out on themselves and their fictional twink's holes the way I so kindly do (you're welcome)

I've always been much harsher with myself and my work than I'd ever be of anyone else and one of the unexpected consequences of this break is that I am now able to read my Creek fics and appreciate them for what they are with a little more distance. They're not perfect but I made them, many people like them, and I have influenced this space to some degree. Those are just the facts.

While I am on this hiatus, I intend to rec fics over on my tumblr at some interval because I know a ton of amazing writers Creek shippers should check out if they haven't already. I might share my own too because I haven't posted everything over there, and frankly there's a fuckton in the back catalogue. Sorry this is so long and please start a pressure campaign on South Park Studios so that they will make a special centered on Tweek's ass. Or like a Creek episode or something but ideally the ass thing