i'm sorry for what happened to you, dear:( all i can say is you'll be okay. yes it takes time, just enjoy this phase. you shoulda realize that all of your emotions are normal, feel them deeply. if you wanna cry, cry as much as you want. if you wanna wake up with your puffy eyes everyday 'cause how much you cried, go on. feel them, and make sure you don't wallow in them. you still have to pick yourself up, and get out of this. semangat!!