anon · 20d
Hello, Vi! Please only answer this when you're okay and doing well because I don't want you to burden yourself to answer something that came from a bit of heavy feelings in context, alright? I love you and always take care of yourself first, my vimoon.
I would like to ask for your advice, my Vi. I really want to pursue my dream career/program which is fashion. However, my mother won't allow me to do so and she wants me to finish my current program (medical related program) that I felt I had to take as I am the eldest daughter. But I really want to shift—no, i need to shift to my true passion and love. Because tbh, my current medical related program is affecting my whole being, particularly my mental health. It has been this way since my last semester of 1st year. It has come to the point wherein I wanted to destroy and throw away my books, my art materials, and everything that's me. It's getting worse by the day. I know I should've shifted during my 2nd year but I had this thought to see or check it first if it will be still the same—full of despair and suffering, while I hoped it wouldn't be like that anymore. Alas, my hopes didn't come true. I'm still stuck in this cycle of despair, suffering, lost, and depression.
I'm so sorry Vimoon that I ran to you for advice on something so heavy. I hope you can give me an advice but not right away, just when you're okay to do so please? Thank you so much again, my vimoon. I love you so much, to the moon, sun, and beyond time.
i’m sorry i can’t help you any more than this—i know how heavy that must weigh on your heart. i had to beg my parents to eventually let me switch to what i wanted to do.. it took me years and they were only convinced when they saw how hard i worked to prove to them i was serious and that it wasn’t just a whim id abandon. i wish i didn’t have to prove anything to them but i still do understand why they were worried about it at the time.. im sorry you are suffering so much and im not even sure if this is plausible for you with how busy you are with your program now, but is there any way you could prove to her how serious and committed you are to yourself/your passion? i really wanted to be a working artist and go to school for sculpture—before and during my first year of college i built a jewelry brand and made sure they knew its progression and where it was going. my first year after finally being able to pursue art, i was in an exhibition and was published. i think that was when they finally accepted my passions for what they were. im also sorry if i am talking out of my ass and you’ve done all this already to no avail and i’m extra sorry that this is all i can advise you to do. i hope no matter how much she tries to squander your dreams, that you know there is no timeline and even if not now, your passion will always be there waiting for you, because it’s yours. it was always meant to be.
