it may sound odd to say, but I'm definitely partial to this kind of headcanon, personally! I think it's fascinating in the way that it can explore how much more malignant and isolating harboring these kind of beliefs can be, on top of all the things that isolate Adachi already. (many of which are Adachi's own doing.) it's a very bitter, empty, "everyone vs me" kind of existence.

I've tweeted about this before, but my Touko headcanon is that she's a "failure to conform to femininity" type, in her mind, but as a self-pejorative. she's not poised or demure, she's naturally a bit crass and still bumbling even after dropping the exaggerated act, and she makes other women uneasy by having vibes that are "off" even when she doesn't have malicious intent… (Yui is a similar "failure to conform to femininity" type, but she leans into it with confidence, so women think she's cool for it instead.) I think this can cause Touko to both internalize and externalize this in the worst ways.

in my opinion, her being a femcel is kind of integral for fem Adachi if you're going to make her sapphic. in canon, Adachi's core issues all revolve around envy, inadequacy, and the feeling of depowerment. the feeling of something that was "entitled" to him being "stolen away" like everything else he dreamt of, which was how he got himself into this mess in the first place. for a straight guy character, this isn't a very novel story-line – but for a sapphic character, I found it absolutely intriguing and something I haven't seen very much of in fiction outside of maybe Steven Universe. I felt that, with Touko, the addition of her having this sapphic femcel mindset just made sense for her to have. it added nuance and depth to her motivations and to nearly every character she interacts with, as well as allowing for an exploration of these rampant problems within feminist and sapphic circles. she's closeted, in denial, and she's made to believe that her supposed soul mate is another woman, who is having an affair with… some guy? (or the concept of Mayumi having an affair with another, though much older woman, confirming to Touko that she is also sapphic just like her, but Touko still got rejected? the emotional roller coaster of all of this for her when she's already in an unstable state is so interesting for me to think about too, and especially her ire towards a fem Namatame who she'd assume is some straight girl playing with Mayumi, until she deems them both straight whores when she's rejected.) Touko comes onto Mayumi in a disrespectful and self-entitled way, effectively creeping her out while humiliating and outing herself in the process. and so when she's obviously rejected, she freaks out. it plays fairly well into her initially being genuinely passionate about justice, especially for women as a woman – but somewhere along the way, it's been horribly twisted into real full-on hatred towards men, and even resentment towards other women for "putting up with it." I think it also puts context to these beliefs, because it's honest about the fact that these stem from fears and sometimes traumatic experiences, but primarily from hatred, so the narrative doesn't excuse them. what vulnerabilities lie behind the veil, and how can they be overcome? I will say, I do think it'd be cool for her to still get decked in the face a bunch though.

thank you for this! I always am accepting questions, though I was uncertain about whether they'd post due to twitter's rule changes with posting from other sites, but it seems okay now? I admit I'm worried to talk about it only because I don't want anyone to think that me headcanoning this about a character I like a lot means that I somehow condone it or share the same beliefs when that's not the case. 💦

they're both such bizarre and funny little creatures that I'd think they were kind of made for each other if I were more into m/f than f/f. (pocketing the concept of genderbent f/f laiolin to think about more later... 💭)

I haven't really interacted much with other laiolin shippers, so I don't know if even they'd agree with me on this take, but I think if all end's well, laios would become so extremely protective of her that he wouldn't want to even lose sight of her in this kind of unhealthily fixated way. I think it'd be interesting and cool and sexy if any semblance of a normal sibling relationship they had before all this just dissolved into something twisted even with good intention; devotion and protection turning into manipulation and controlling her autonomy, "for her sake." that, to me, is the juice.

there's very rarely an actual good excuse, but I will say that the explanation for my doing so with so many people lately is when my physical and mental health both take a nosedive, I really just fall off the ball with all of the social responsibilities that I myself had set up with others and then turn inwards, or only keep to a very small handful of people. I haven't been very active at all in most servers I've joined, or even on my main account in so long either.

with the shortage of my meds these past few months, I'm just always fatigued, struggling to conjure and organize my thoughts, struggling with time blindness, and procrastinating can make keeping in consistent contact really difficult. it's frustrating to feel this burnt out, yet have nothing to show for it at all, as if I'm burnt out just from existing... these things, plus the shame of falling off of socializing with people I care about, can make me feel like getting back into contact after such an egregious amount of time in between may end up making the other person even more upset and disappointed with me, and so I get stuck in this mind swamp that causes me to put it off even longer, no matter how much I do want to. it's hard to explain because it's irrational thinking one can get stuck on, and it's frustrating that knowing it's irrational doesn't make it go away. so... often, it's not on purpose or something the other person did, but it's still really unfortunate and I have sadly lost friendships in this kind of self-sabotaging way. when it's really bad, the thinking will turn into some bizarrely "noble" idea that distancing myself from someone is for the other person's benefit in the long run, whether that's even true or not. if anything, this stretch of time has highlighted that I still have a lot to work on and things I need to take responsibility for.

I'm sorry for pretty much using this ask as an excuse to vent...! 😖💦 while there are other possible reasons why someone would silently distance themselves from others, these ones in particular are just the ones I've been struggling with very badly these past several months.