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Brave Anonymous · 2d
i adore concerts alot... thisis gonna be my like fifth one? one of the most expensive bbut it's so worth it! um othr than thatt.. iwas curiosu if you know of gokurakugai? iread it recently and i quite enjoy it...
OH MY GAWD! I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT GOKURAKUGAI ... I wanted to read it because Nei looks so me ... I'm going to definitely get into it now!
I've only been to 02 concerts ... Both secret because I was recognized [as EK] at one, and the second was quite local. Mega embarrassing on the former since that was in May so I felt so paranoid ... but it went fine anyhow, and no one AFAIK posted pictures of me there ^^;;
Brave Anonymous · 1d
could you tell me the song from the lyrics “i am god and god is only me” from that one rentry you had?
Brave Anonymous · 1d
Are you still into manifestation? I used to go back to your post about tips before you resetted your RS, so it would be very helpful if you could share them again if that's okay (╥﹏╥) Muchas gracias!
I'm even more into manifestation now then I was before! Recently I've been using a modified version of the 369 method, in which I write down 03 times of what I desire (as already having it), 06 of why I deserve it, and 09 of embodying it. ^^
Remember that what you're trying to manifest you already have, the 3D simply has to catch up to you. There is no need to fret!
Brave Anonymous · 2d
what is your tellonym profile if i may ask?
I'm not giving it out yet! Buuuut -~> https://yoshizaki.atabook.org/ You can have my atabook
Brave Anonymous · 3d
when retrospring gets deleted ( i think it is ), where will you go to? will you go onto a new website like neospring or just leave it at that ? /gen
Brave Anonymous · 3d
idkk if my last messgae sent. umm just incase it didnt like him is sogood it makesme really emotional he hit thenail on the head with how it feels... but i also really love hey jane, judge judy, adn take your mask off!! imgonns see him on tour for sure now :D gotthe tickets and everythingg
Brave Anonymous · 3d
I listened to the song you recommended--Angel by Joy Again. I haven't spoken to you in a long time, so I can't say if it's truly like you or not, but either way: it is a wonderful song, thank you for showing it to me. I really like the intro and the instrumentals, it has a very interesting rhythm to it.
Have you made friends offline? I'd like it if you were able to live a fulfilling life with friends around you, physically being able to be there and bring you joy. It's easier to re-learn things, I think, when you feel safer knowing there are friends who will defend you.
It's okay to talk about your experiences using my letters, I think it's wonderful. I want to know you as a person. I know you have grown and changed, and how I feel about "you" is more fixed on the person you used to be. I want to have the opportunity to know who you are right now, as well.
I will extend your apologies if the opportunity comes up, you have my word on that. I avoid bringing up old scars to my friends, but, if there ever be a time where you are brought up again, I'll remember to inform them of your thoughts now with as much justice as I could extend in your name.
Feel free to tell me anything that you feel like is on your mind right now, I can still follow your train of thought pretty well. Would it benefit you to tell you who I am? I fear you won't remember, but if it would make you feel more at ease, I will. --The Sun
Joy Again is bittersweet to me since an old friend -- a policeman, or perhaps a white guy, if you were around that inside joke era -- introduced me to them. Song and Dance is a great goodbye album and it's allowed me to move on from a lot of things. ^^
I have a lot of IRL friends! And we hang out often -- thrifting, Halloween, sleepovers, the beach! All things I couldn't do when I was lonely. The past February 25th, when everything happened, I was at a fair with them. On the 27th, I had told them about everything and expected them to avoid me, but they didn't, and we're closer than ever. I love my friends ^^ A recent source of anxiety is that we'll drift apart once we graduate, but I think what matters is that I'm much more comfortable socializing ... I think I'll be able to make friends easily once I go off to college thanks to them!
Right now, I'm thinking about how happy I am that tomorrow's my mom's birthday! I bought her gifts for the first time -- earrings and a necklace that I felt fit her and her style -- made her a playlist, drew a portrait of her, and wrote a note. I'm afraid that she won't like them, as my brother bought her something much more expensive than what I had, and she seemed to be very happy with his gifts as he chose to give them to her early ... But I didn't saddle her with these feelings, asking the rest of my family what they thought and they assured me it's intent what matters and my gifts fit her.
Speaking of: the relationship between my brother and I is much less turbulent these days. It doesn't undo the fact that he never apologized for what he's done to me in the past, but I think he must heal from his own old wounds too, just like I had to, and as an older sister, I should be more patient with him.
While I was still dealing with my problems post Feb. 25th, I got very strange and threatening letters ₍ᐢ. ̯ .ᐢ₎ That sounds random but it's related! It wasn't only that, people contacted my mom! One of those being an ex-friend, who ... I can't entirely blame, because I'm sure they deemed their actions justice. But I had known them 04? 05? Years, and they were definitely around when I spoke about how my brother would beat on me and his verbal abuse -- I would never go to the authorities on him, and I made endless excuses for him, but he was still abusive. This ex-friend told my mother they were scared for my brother! As if I was the sort of person to hurt him in any way beyond banter. It made me feel sick!!
Don't worry about the letters by the way, we went to the authorities (Though they didn't do much) and they eventually stopped -- I guess they got bored, because I didn't whine about it online? It didn't affect me too much, since I'm used to being stalked ... Which is a bad thing to be used to!!!
Point is, I guess that ex-friend reaching out in that sort of way made me realize what a monster people felt I was -- and who was I to deny them that perception? And it made me stop wallowing in self-pity and get things done in spite of myself.
If you want to tell me, you can. I don't mind. I am highly curious and nosey of course. But you know what they say about curiosity ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎
Thank you for letting me ramble. ♡
Brave Anonymous · 4d
I don’t know if my question regarding [N] went through or if it got ignored. I’m sorry if my question was odd to ask, I know it’s none of my business to know but I’ve simply been curious as well… I’ve seen concerning things about him/her that I know kind of goes against your boundaries so I was simply curious if you were still in a friendship with [N] regardless of that, unless you’re not aware?
Brave Anonymous · 4d
Please do read this in a helpful tone, not as me berating you, but you make some common grammar mistakes when writing in spanish. While your sentences are good and easily readable, as someone who has spanish as their first-language those mistakes take my attention away from what you were writing about, and as someone currently writing in a language I learnt by myself, who's never corrected by others in a helpful manner and has been made fun of because of them, I wish to help you a little bit. Btw, I'd recommend adding a spanish spellchecker to your keyboard!
Some of the mistakes I've seen in your recent spanish-asks are:
Asta. When refering to a limit or a quantity/number, it's Hasta, ''Till''. Asta actually means lance, animal horns, or the pole of a flag.
Seda. That means silk, you must've meant Será, meaning ''It will be''.
You wrote Se instead of Ser once.
So no te preocupar. You used So, and the incorrect conjugation of preocupar. This should've been ''Así que no te preocupes''.
You're not using the letter ''ñ''. I'm sure this is because your keyboard must not have it, but it's important to use this letter in the words that need it. You wrote ''Dano'' instead of ''Daño''.
You're mixing the pronouns of certain words. Remember that spanish is a gendered language, even the word for an object can have a gender: Agua is femenine, Libro is masculine, for example. Not sure if this is intentional, since you were talking about someone, and lots of queer spanish speakers write because they use She/Him pronouns, but you used femenine pronouns the whole sentence except in ''Bloquealo''.
^^;; This is nice but Spanish is my first tongue! I know how to write it just fine, most of my grammar mistakes are on purpose to reflect the way I speak -- which is incorrect, BTW! I mess up pronunciations and mix pronouns and put emphasis on weird letters -- since it's always been a source of embarrassment for me, it makes me feel better to wear it proudly. "Why not just get better?" because I'm not any better at English, either, and people understand me either way ... I'm always seeking towards improvement but I'll probably always make mistakes because it gives my Spanish personality. Same way I say capul instead of flequillo ^^ I grew up listening to 03 different dialects, after all.
I appreciate you wanting to be helpful and I'll take it into account, but it's a purposeful decision on my part! Think of it as how some poets purposefully misspell words and what not.
Brave Anonymous · 4d
thank you for thecheese... Um! random questionbut do you like tyler the creator... specifically his latestalbum. so well done im usually a casual listener to his stuff but ive had this on loop so!!!
I have not listened to Chromakopia in full, but someone dear to me adores Tyler so I've been trying to get into his music! I've been enjoying Like Him most, I think. It touches a personal place in my heart ><
I do enjoy how cinematic the album is, and it makes me want to actually listen to his past albums! 2024 is a good year for music.
Brave Anonymous · 4d
what were the lyrics on /outergoddess from? all I remember was "I want you to love me even if I'm greedy" ;;
Brave Anonymous · 4d
Do you know about any mangas with jirai protagonists? (˶ˆᗜˆ˵)
"I'm Not Some Man's Dress-Up Doll" is the only good one I know off the top of my head o(_ _o)!
"Tomorrow, I'll Be Someone's Girlfriend" is good but I consider it more ryosangata than true Jirai
I've been looking desperately recently but the only other one I know isn't translated and, based off the synopsis, her love interest is her teacher. Bleh!
In "Sensitive Boy"'s second arc, there is a jirai joshi. She isn't the protagonist, but she is a main character! She's also me as hell unfortunately! I actually really love Sensitive Boy and recommend it to anyone who can stomach it [TW for s/a, s/h, and abuse of all kinds -- it's a horror manga but it's tasteful about its' subject matter]
Brave Anonymous · 4d
Hi! I hope this doesn't seem weird.. but I noticed in a response, it was stated that y'all used to have long hair, have you cut it recently? I'm sorry, I'm just interested since I was around when you used to post OOTDs on your old TWT and I thought that your hair was pretty ( /.)
We cut it a little bit after I resolved to change. ^^ Then cut it again in September due to not asking for layers the first time and to inspire growth. It's a "bi bob with bangs", or for a better visual: Friends have said we look like Volume 04 Kokoa! ... Or the berries and cream Lad.
I don't post pictures of my face any more but it's dyed red. When it grows out, we're re-dying it either brown or black with a pink peek-a-boo.
Brave Anonymous · 5d
im very intriguedby you. like not in a bad way. i think in a imweird and like to observe people i find cool way. unsure. id like to be your friend though. if im sufficiently unawkward about it which im probably not. Sorry im odd! eek!
Brave Anonymous · 4d
This might be an odd one (and long!) but I feel like I should get it off my chest. I've known you for ages and we fell out a long time ago, I would argue even before your worst downward spiral, and was an outsider who was roped into much of the drama you later were involved in and became a refuge for many people who emerged hurt from the things you did. I do not claim to be able to fully forgive you, as the memories from people I've seen are great in their weight and there are things about you still that I think are... indelicate, so to speak. Nonetheless, I did not write to insult you. I write to genuinely wish for a full recovery for you, because I understand the spirals bad mental health can cause, especially with the environment you were raised in. I wish for you better days in the future when you can look back on the time you spent on the internet and laugh and go "wow what the fuck was that." I don't know where you are in life but I'm going to college this year as one of the most accomplished people in my grade. I've got a partner who I love and I childishly hope would be able to marry one day (as I'm typing this, she's sleeping. She occasionally rouses briefly to ask me to repeat that I love her, and then goes back to sleep once she gets her confirmation). I'm more offline than ever. But I occasionally still do remember you with a mixture of well-wishes and bitterness and I suppose you would understand the feeling. I wish you better days, I wish you friends and lovers who are kinder to you than you used to be to others. I wish you remorse that weighs on you as needed but doesn't consume you. Most importantly, I wish you humility, as I believe that is what will bring you the most happiness. If you wish, I will say more, but if not, this is where I will leave it. --The Sun
I don't know exactly how to respond to this because I can't ... tell who you are. A lot of trauma from the time also blurred the memory of people who I held so close to my heart that it felt like a part of me died when they left. I have dreams about my past [friends] and occasionally remember "new" things but it doesn't really matter in the end. I'm upset by it [partial amnesia] but it's also for the better, I think, otherwise I think I would spend most of my time crying and unable to move on. I hope to remember one day. That's a bit off-topic, though.
You could be harsher. Rather than just indelicate, I know to this day I struggle with my language and put myself first to a selfish degree -- my biggest flaw is also my ego. If I could be quiet, if I could listen, then I'd be much better off. It's hard to re-learn because it makes me feel small and cornered and much like a weak predation animal, I start lashing out and baring my teeth. Even though the danger's all in my head, or it's my fault I ended up cornered anyway. You're right that I need humility. Thank you ...
₍⑅ᐢ..ᐢ₎ I keep talking about things that are beyond "You", so I apologize. I guess it's because no one who I felt devastated when they left has sent me anything, nor have any other asks mentioned it so I'm taking this opportunity to lay my thoughts bare. You didn't grant me this selfishness, but thank you for giving me the opportunity to, and I'm sorry for using your reaching out to.
You and your partner sound lovely, and it brought me a smile to read about such. She sounds lovely, and I wish for your eternal happiness -- or at the very least, that there's always a rainbow after your rainy days.
You can always send another message! And ... If you feel that anyone who used to knew me would like to hear such, please extend my apologies. I don't want to pick at old wounds, but any old friend of mine would know what my legs are dotted in. I suppose it's in my nature to disturb peaceful things, but I still wholeheartedly wish to reconnect with old friends ... I don't know where on the scale of possible that lies on, though I won't ask you to humor me on such nor ask, since you seem quite the opposite -- it feels you'll just tell me to let sleeping dogs lie -- moreover, if anyone did want to reach out, I'm sure they'd do so out of their own will ... My train of thought has failed me, but basically: Thank you, and more messages will be welcome with open arms.
And one more side note: Do you like Joy Again? Have you seen their latest album? It's very precious to me, as their last one. I just think their song Angel is a lot like me. " Don't listen to the voice that's telling you I'm someone else, / I'm only what I was to you back then " ^^