Hi. Since I’m back “online”, I thought I’d say a last couple of things.

Really, I’m not ‘back online’ at all, nor am I trying to “rebrand”, as apparently people have been claiming. I’m not trying to have a presence on SNS at all. I’m not making any more public accounts, I was going to delete my Tumblrs but I have some things I’d like to keep archiving, so once I can finally archive those, they’ll be gone [Mainly graphics, plus I think MOGAI archival is very important and I want to keep my terms somewhere safe]. No one should have any worry that I’ll ‘come back’ in any capacity, because I’m not interested in content creation or SNS at the moment. I’m only making rentries because I’d like to keep my URLs and making graphics is still a hobby.

As for anything previously on this account — I saved everything I needed to save. I also saved what Norton told me, so that I can remember it and think about it [ A lot more, but proof ]. Deleting it isn’t an attempt to cover up anything I’ve done or run away, it was simply because I’m no longer the same person I was when I started this account two years ago.

The last eight months, I have been thinking deeply on the sort of person I am and how I have affected those who once knew me and currently know me. I fully admit I was manipulative, neglectful, self—centered, rash, ill—tempered, and two—faced. I fully admit I mistreated Norton while he(? Apologies, I don’t keep up) was age—regressed. I don’t have an excuse for that, and never did. I won’t say I groomed him, after many conversations with my therapist and showing her directly what Norton has said, because that would’ve required planning, secrecy (Many people daily saw the mistreatment—even abuse—I put him through), awareness and time I did not have. We had a six month gap in our friendship due to events in January 2023, and even then I had a curfew of nine p.m., his age regression wasn’t something I could’ve planned or incited due to it being because he integrated with a different alter, and more, but I’m not here to talk about what I’ve discussed in therapy. Norton's free to think of my abuse however he’d like, that’s not my decision to make, I was simply clarifying this.

I’d like to apologize to Reona here too. I had falsely claimed that she had spread dangerous pictures of me. It’s important to note that I fully believed she did when I had said it. I did not learn the truth until police were called to my house and they had gone through my device. I apologize for the stress I caused Reona due to my paranoia.
As for the one who actually spread it; I wasn’t going to press legal action even if I could, and you shouldn’t worry about your parents being aware of anything you’ve done. You’ve broken my trust, but that was my fault for being so naïve. I’m sorry you had to be involved with me. I hope you’re happy, lemon.

While I was gone, I had gotten a crush confession. It seems stupid to mention, but I want to respond as they seemed to hope for one. To them: This is a firm rejection. You had hoped to be friends, but that isn’t possible. I’m sorry, and I hope you’re healthy — I’d speak to a professional about the reasons why you crush on people, since it’d only put you in danger.

If anyone wanted to speak for any reason, I’m afraid that won’t be possible. I’m putting a hard foot down on any sort of communication or building a community. To past and ex friends, thank you for the memories. To past and ex members of any community I was part of, thank you for helping me grow my skills. Thank you to everyone who taught me a lesson.

Finally, I’d like to give back to the community a little bit. I made a playlist — Zhebelev’s Day In RecoveryLand — with the purpose of sharing songs that helped me learn something / I had previously gatekept. I’ve been thinking of adding a list of manga I previously gatekept (The theme on Engagekiss is “Until Your Sword Breaks”) but that will take quite a while. I am going to make a rentry with a list of both of these things. They’ll be on my more popular URLs, so I won’t need to announce them or anything. I know I’ve turned over a new leaf and I don’t need anyone to believe me.

I think that’s all. I won’t be using this as a social media and this will be my last public appearance ever. Thank you for reading.