Lars you seem very sweet and i admire your writing but i've been in this fandom for awhile and it seems like anytime there is any drama you are some how involved either directly or indirectly. Maybe it's by no fault of your own but i will be honest it makes me question if you are trustworthy or genuine. Maybe it's just the people you surround yourself with but I would recommend self reflecting and i mean this in the nicest way possible!