If that were to happen I think Chuuya would be the one most outwardly distraught, sobbing crying, throwing deranged threats, while Dazai just shuts down, it’s nothing he hasn’t dealt with before and it probably won’t be the last, he was always told he was just too pretty until he opened his mouth, just another day of being beneath disgusting powerful men, he stopped trying to claw his way out along time ago, why waste the energy

and seeing Dazai’s blank face—the bored expression of disassociation that Dazai gets while killing or torturing or any other unsavory task Mori gives him—breaks Chuuya’s heart more than anything, because he knows, he knows Dazai is somewhere inside himself screaming and maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, a month from now, Chuuya will find Dazai surrounded by razor blades and bleeding out on the bathroom floor for the dozenth time all because Chuuya was too weak to save Dazai from everyone around them, too weak to save Dazai from himself