this is so!!!!! interesting omg!!!!!!!!!! cause getting into zb1 i initially regarded mattbin as emotionally available heejay lol (it's the history of it all) and so i actually felt like i was writing hanbin as an emotionally available but still unattainable version of heeseung. i can kinda see what you mean about me writing hanbin like how i wrote jay tho... i love and admire him a lot so i think that probably translates into how i write about him in a similar way

you clocked me so hard btw. hyung line rotate in my head like a rotisserie chicken for my bias of the week at all times, but jiwoong was my unchanging no. 1 bias for the loooongest time (i look at him and i just get so emotional over this poetic himbo) but it's solidly become hao now. i'm just kinda obsessed with that guy he's so cool and cute and pouty