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radioactive anon · 2mo
HI YAYA i was j wondering, are you okay with requests to your priv? <3
radioactive anon · 6mo
We may always be strangers to one another, but I am glad our paths crossed even just for the blink of an eye. I'll treasure the stories you've shared forever, the things you put out there are like the seeds of flowers that have taken root in my heart, changing me in ways I never expected. It's mending wounds I didn't even realize I had. I'm beyond grateful for that.
May the river of life carry you with love, wherever it takes you.
radioactive anon · 6mo
Im not elegant in words, but your art - gposes - wirtings - general talks are just so inspirational to me. I love the way you prose and I feel like I could cry. I know you retired from XIV, but just know, your light still lives in my head and heart as I work on my own gposes, no matter how amature they seem.
radioactive anon · 6mo
sometimes you find a writer who makes you see the world in shades of violet instead of rose and wonder at how beautiful it is to exist at the same time as someone who can awaken something deep within you without trying. i'll never know you or your heart but you've touched mine all the same. thank you for that gift, given freely without even knowing. the world is rarely gentle but i hope the hands you allow to hold you are.
radioactive anon · 6mo
What are the thoughts if Drows about Love?
radioactive anon · 7mo
What is ur no.1 recommended book for people wanting to fill their heads with drow lore? In particular stuff useful for writing/playing drow characters? Thank you for all your amazing lore dumps 💜
radioactive anon · 7mo
hi, i was the "how do you deal with it" anon. i wont lie i wasnt necessarily asking for a cheer-up essay or anything, just your thoughts— maybe more commiseration seeking than anything, i guess— but i appreciate your perspective and you taking the time to share it given the topic in the first place. depression is no stranger but i am generally "good" for the most part, just broadly pushed away by heavily dense spaces filled with insanity that whittles away at even my patience lmao. a reminder to curate your own space is always good, though, so i'll keep that in mind. i want to enjoy this thing everyone else enjoys but given everything else it just may not be in the cards. i will still cheer u all on though. thanks again, have a good day
good morning !!! apologies for misunderstanding you, i was in a prickly mood and distracted when i got ur ask. i dont think u have to be depressed to be upset at soc med more so that it’s that it’s similar in that you have to take this thing that causes distress and decide what to do with yourself in the face of it. i hope ur able to find something enjoyable thats for urself and precious in that way
radioactive anon · 7mo
sally sees that the cotton is orange… and is horrified because it’s her least favorite kind of cotton. she tries to get through, but she can’t… and loses. she doesn’t care she’s lost her reputation. she doesn’t care that she’s lost this competition. she doesn’t even care about her tummyache. she cares that she’s now lost pierre. the love of her tiny little moth life. and so sally begins to cry. she weeps and sobs and sheds so many tears for the life she and pierre could have built. and yaya? sweet, forgiving yaya… have you ever seen a moth bawl? -eli
radioactive anon · 7mo
sorry for the ffxiv question but can you explain zero and avalo's relationship? always so interested in them!
radioactive anon · 7mo
don't you get tired of the near constant drama. i can't even get past act 1 because my experience is so ruined by the inescapable fandom drama 24/7. people have such a parasocial relationship with this game it just makes me want to do anything else which is sad because i'd love to be able to enjoy what everyone else is enjoying, but not at the cost of adjacency to... All Of That. how can you stand it
tbh it sounds like you want me to write a long pretty essay in my yaya ways and give you strength and hope to see a beautiful new perspective but i dont want to !
why ARE you here? it sucks right? it actively hurts you? but you’re still online. if you have a knee jerk response, like, there is your answer. you don’t need a good reason, you just need your own. it can be to see cool art or see a shitpost. i dont care, i am not you.
that said, if you’ve come to the conclusion that you’re getting more pain than joy out of social media, or you realize you’re using it as a pacifier so as to not deal with the hardships and suffering of real life (this one is me btw, i use social media to not have to think & deal w reality) you have to decide if u wanna stay in that fugue state or not. i cant make that decision for you.
unfortunately the reality is that if your body is weak and it’s unbearable to you, you DO have to get out of bed. the reality is that if social media is hurting you, you do have to control the aspects of it that you can and learn to bear what you don’t. that said, i am in no position and do not condone seeing it as a moral failing if people do stay in bed and let their teeth rot, because that ISNT a moral failing, its just depression and its sad and i can encourage them to use a floss pick but i wont punish them for it. control what you can and bear what you can’t ! i still cant wear heels bc my leg is weak from where i broke it, but i do go to the gym to make it stronger because not wearing cute shoes is UNBEARABLE!! …. this metaphor is a little insane SORRY xoxoxo
i have a lot of friends who only exist in discord servers because they realized what you told me and then they took the proactive step to remove themselves from the thing that was causing them harm. i have friends who are online only during set periods of hours during the day. i have friends hiding on 6 follower privates, deleting & remaking, blocking everyone, ignoring everything but their mutuals. you have to help yourself, so what works for you, the person who has to live their life?
do you actively want to change? do you punish yourself for not having discipline? do you replace a bad habit with a different one? what do you do with yourself?
you will never ever ever change the landscape of social media, so what CAN you change? do you WANT to change?
i care about the people around me deeply and i’m able to think through their perspectives and acknowledge their behaviors are a feedback cycle born from their surroundings so i dont actually mind weird insane ppl online. i make fun of them, i vent privately to trusted friends, i talk to ppl directly if i feel like they’re receptive to me doing so, and i TRY (i fail at this sometimes bc i am human, but i also try to remember that other ppl being fuck ups also means theyre human and my decision is based on what i personally can tolerate in my circles) to keep it off my own twitter bc i have 1.6k followers and its not cool to expose so many ppl to negativity. i care about my friends so i will defend them and i will also not expose them to unnecessary drama. i block ppl for having stupid display names. who gives a shit. i try to have boundaries. how much of this will matter in five years? how do i affect people around me? do i remember both that everyone is human and that we all fuck up and have bad days and shitty opinions and then also remember that there are so many people online and we see too many opinions and i dont have to tolerate a shitty opinion from a stranger who means nothing to me the same way i dont have to tolerate the man across jacking off looking at me ? some parts of life are so unbearable dude. you bear them when you have no other choice but dont do so when you can drop them and run
radioactive anon · 7mo
ah! the cotton WAS blue! which is coincidentally her most favorite type of cotton! she wins and upon finding blue being served for the national cotton eating competition, she wins yet again! this lands her in the international cotton eating competition held in paris! she’s gained a very nice reputation for herself and feels rather confident. she buys a plane ticket and travels to paris a week before the competition to sightsee. upon getting there, she meets a beautiful butterfly named pierre and they fall in love. but pierre's parents aren’t a fan because she’s a moth. so they make a deal. she and pierre can stay together IF she wins the international cotton eating competition. so the competition rolls around and she goes…… determined to win this for him….. what color of cotton is being served?
radioactive anon · 7mo
which is her second favorite kind of cotton! naturally, sally demolishes the pile and wins yet again. she’s headed to the state cotton eating competition! she trains even harder for this and when she arrives, she feels SO prepared. when she gets there, she spots a massive pile of cotton and this time it’s….
radioactive anon · 7mo
so they were serving pink cotton. sally's third favorite kind of cotton! so she devoured it all and crushed the competition. she won! so she was able to move onto the next level of competition. she trained and by the time the competition rolls around, she feels pretty prepared. as she arrives? what color of cotton is being served? (a second color please)
radioactive anon · 7mo
Are your FFXIV and Tav OCs similar personality wise ?
radioactive anon · 7mo
what do you think is a common misconception about Minthara?/what do you wish more people understood about her character?
YAYA IS BEING FORCED TO BE SERIOUS ? 🧐
this is true for every single character not just minnie but i think it is impossible to discern an online twitter user’s understanding of the depth of a character through a single or even a handful of tweets, especially joke tweets. i also think that npcs can fundamentally change through their interactions with people’s own ocs, so therefore i’m pretty relaxed with what people do with minthara, she isn’t real and i advocate for characters to be used as tools for stories.
that said, if i do get frustrated with someone’s depiction of minthara (and again, any character) it’s usually if they’re using her as a masturbatory tool over a character 😭 by this i mean that if i can replace ur depiction of minthara with a faceless dommy muscle mommy, a hyper traditional sadist boring dialogue OR conversely shes a shy scared helpless soft sapphic tearful bottom type who just needs to be loved into seeing how beautiful the world is (i have seen both of these, i think it comes from over correction from not wanting to be in the “opposite” camp) im probably gonna wrinkle my nose, again im never going to be mean about someone about her esp as i dont know their intentions, their own history w abuse (since every bg3 character has this), their age or skill level (im not gonna be mean to anyone who is experimenting or learning or trying to grow).
for my own understanding & my (OWN PERSONAL) interpretation of minthara, it’s really important for me to depict that she absolutely 10000% knows who she is and is completely solid in her selfhood and accepts everything that happened to her without ever flinching and she never hides from her feelings. if you tell her you think shes broken, she will tell you that broken minds heal just as well as broken bones, but doesn’t disagree. she makes it her oath to take vengeance on orin but after you confront her she will tell you that she isnt sure she could have done it without you and laments over orin, who she despises. she’s extremely intelligent, reflective, and even straight up empathetic and those are her core traits. TO ME, to hoori’s interpretation of her.