tbh it sounds like you want me to write a long pretty essay in my yaya ways and give you strength and hope to see a beautiful new perspective but i dont want to !

why ARE you here? it sucks right? it actively hurts you? but you’re still online. if you have a knee jerk response, like, there is your answer. you don’t need a good reason, you just need your own. it can be to see cool art or see a shitpost. i dont care, i am not you.

that said, if you’ve come to the conclusion that you’re getting more pain than joy out of social media, or you realize you’re using it as a pacifier so as to not deal with the hardships and suffering of real life (this one is me btw, i use social media to not have to think & deal w reality) you have to decide if u wanna stay in that fugue state or not. i cant make that decision for you.

unfortunately the reality is that if your body is weak and it’s unbearable to you, you DO have to get out of bed. the reality is that if social media is hurting you, you do have to control the aspects of it that you can and learn to bear what you don’t. that said, i am in no position and do not condone seeing it as a moral failing if people do stay in bed and let their teeth rot, because that ISNT a moral failing, its just depression and its sad and i can encourage them to use a floss pick but i wont punish them for it. control what you can and bear what you can’t ! i still cant wear heels bc my leg is weak from where i broke it, but i do go to the gym to make it stronger because not wearing cute shoes is UNBEARABLE!! …. this metaphor is a little insane SORRY xoxoxo

i have a lot of friends who only exist in discord servers because they realized what you told me and then they took the proactive step to remove themselves from the thing that was causing them harm. i have friends who are online only during set periods of hours during the day. i have friends hiding on 6 follower privates, deleting & remaking, blocking everyone, ignoring everything but their mutuals. you have to help yourself, so what works for you, the person who has to live their life?

do you actively want to change? do you punish yourself for not having discipline? do you replace a bad habit with a different one? what do you do with yourself?

you will never ever ever change the landscape of social media, so what CAN you change? do you WANT to change?

i care about the people around me deeply and i’m able to think through their perspectives and acknowledge their behaviors are a feedback cycle born from their surroundings so i dont actually mind weird insane ppl online. i make fun of them, i vent privately to trusted friends, i talk to ppl directly if i feel like they’re receptive to me doing so, and i TRY (i fail at this sometimes bc i am human, but i also try to remember that other ppl being fuck ups also means theyre human and my decision is based on what i personally can tolerate in my circles) to keep it off my own twitter bc i have 1.6k followers and its not cool to expose so many ppl to negativity. i care about my friends so i will defend them and i will also not expose them to unnecessary drama. i block ppl for having stupid display names. who gives a shit. i try to have boundaries. how much of this will matter in five years? how do i affect people around me? do i remember both that everyone is human and that we all fuck up and have bad days and shitty opinions and then also remember that there are so many people online and we see too many opinions and i dont have to tolerate a shitty opinion from a stranger who means nothing to me the same way i dont have to tolerate the man across jacking off looking at me ? some parts of life are so unbearable dude. you bear them when you have no other choice but dont do so when you can drop them and run