I don't have enough lung capacity for that!
Yes, including this one, because I like paradoxes
Do you have bad experiences with cats?
Either I get scratched, or I get bitten, or other humans around me mock me for being scared, so yeah lol
What do you think about a cat walking hurriedly to you so that it can rub its head against your leg?
I would be uncomfortable because I am always afraid of pets, and I would prepare mentally to either get scratched, or to be made fun of by the cat's owner until I pet the cat until someone saves me by petting the cat first.
Have you ever got lost?
I did as a child, and I'm glad I forgot most of the details, because while it wasn't that dangerous for me, the way my family treated me is just the same way I am treated anytime I fail at something they believe should have been obvious: by telling me I have no common sense and no intelligence, and never helping me do anything about it.
I also remember my cousins telling me that our granddad used to lead them into the forest near the house, then leave them behind so they would be lost and learn to find their way back. My cousins, all older than me, had tried to do this to me too, but they gave up because I would stay there and cry and not try to move at all. I forgot about all of that fortunately, that's less trauma to deal with; I just remember because they told me about it years later.
What do you think about functional programming?
I don't have much to think about it! I can't grasp any of the math behind it, and I don't have any practical use case for it in my personal projects so I'm not motivated to learn a functional language either.
It's 7.6°C outside. Inside, my thermometer says 14.3°C and 50% humidity, and the heater says 15.2°C, and I don't feel cold!
What do you like to do on Friday nights?
Last Friday I just went to sleep really early, I don't think I even ate dinner. I usually don't do much on Friday nights because I am just so exhausted from the whole week. I then spend all of Saturday recovering from that and calming the anxiety down, and then on Sundays I can try to do all the chores I didn't have the energy to do all week, do some gayming or work on my weird projects.
Which historical era do you find the most fascinating?
I don't have that much interest in history in general and don't know that much about it, so I can't really say!
This is not a question but I hope the end of this year won't be as stressful as the previous ones!
Well thank you but for now it's off to a bad start lol. This year's pile of issues simply cannot resolve itself before next year…
It's a distraction that hasn't annoyed me yet lol
Why is the end of the year stressful?
Since everyone will be going on vacation at the same time, there's more work than usual to finish things. I have to deal with each family member suddenly waking up and pretending that they care about me and want to see me when they never talk the rest of the year and would never do anything to actually help me when I need it. There's less sunlight, which fucks up my sleep some more and doesn't help my mood. There may be gifts to buy, maybe for insistent family members or for a secret santa thing at work or something similar. There might be work events as well, which are optional but you know they're going to look weirdly at you if you don't take part in them. And on top of that, there are the usual random unlucky events that add more anxiety to daily life, and I've been having quite a few of them lately.
I have very little energy to distribute between all of those problems, so I can't deal with them well and end up falling behind, and it just keeps getting worse until January. Then there are less things happening, so maybe after a few more weeks or months of feeling like I'm drowning I might start to feel a little bit better. This has been happening every year since I started living on my own, and I don't expect that to ever change.
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