I did as a child, and I'm glad I forgot most of the details, because while it wasn't that dangerous for me, the way my family treated me is just the same way I am treated anytime I fail at something they believe should have been obvious: by telling me I have no common sense and no intelligence, and never helping me do anything about it.

I also remember my cousins telling me that our granddad used to lead them into the forest near the house, then leave them behind so they would be lost and learn to find their way back. My cousins, all older than me, had tried to do this to me too, but they gave up because I would stay there and cry and not try to move at all. I forgot about all of that fortunately, that's less trauma to deal with; I just remember because they told me about it years later.

Since everyone will be going on vacation at the same time, there's more work than usual to finish things. I have to deal with each family member suddenly waking up and pretending that they care about me and want to see me when they never talk the rest of the year and would never do anything to actually help me when I need it. There's less sunlight, which fucks up my sleep some more and doesn't help my mood. There may be gifts to buy, maybe for insistent family members or for a secret santa thing at work or something similar. There might be work events as well, which are optional but you know they're going to look weirdly at you if you don't take part in them. And on top of that, there are the usual random unlucky events that add more anxiety to daily life, and I've been having quite a few of them lately.

I have very little energy to distribute between all of those problems, so I can't deal with them well and end up falling behind, and it just keeps getting worse until January. Then there are less things happening, so maybe after a few more weeks or months of feeling like I'm drowning I might start to feel a little bit better. This has been happening every year since I started living on my own, and I don't expect that to ever change.