I know that a lot of people could find me boring, because a lot of people won't have my specific interests or won't care about me or what I do or enjoy. That includes my family and most of my coworkers if I were to meet them outside of work. Unfortunately, since I base my self esteem on what I think other people think of me, it doesn't take me much to conclude that I'm boring or useless. I know that to the right people, I am not boring, but there is like… 1 person I know IRL that might not find me boring, so I feel quite lonely.