anon · 15d
REALLY GOOD. i agree wholeheartedly!!! consent is so. so fucking sexy.
it's actually such a damn good idea for yuzuru to, like, "take the position of a servant" because he's taking something that was forced upon him and sort of. truly making it his own. and then having the [choice] to play that persona, that role (which he'd never had regarding it before)——i'm sure that that has to be, like, deeply satisfying. therapeutic, even. it is so significant that he has a choice and has control in the way that he is perceived both by himself and by others.
also i LOVE the kinds of scenes where they Talk before they actually Get Into It, actually. i really like it when i get to read a conversation that two characters have where they basically discuss everything and lay out the rules and stuff before they have sex. i think they're really fun and act as such perfect displays of trust between two characters, and it also allows us to see a little bit of their dynamic outside of what happens in bed...
so then once things start happening, you can see the, like. "switch." they're still themselves, of course, but i think when it comes to cases like wataru's and yuzuru's there's totally something that kinda. sparks something inside them. if that makes any sense. especially given that they're both really complicated in terms of... (waves hand) i don't know... [everything]...
it's also basically. an introduction to being vulnerable, if that makes sense. everything about what comes from having that kind of conversation is vulnerable; in a way, they're like. deconstructing the barriers they've put up and the masks they've been wearing of their own accord and laying themselves bare (metaphorically, of course. but it certainly becomes a lot more literal of a phrase later. haha. don't boo at me). they're talking to each other about what they like and what they don't like. what they're comfortable with and what they aren't. how far they're willing to go and what's strictly off-limits. everything, really. i love meaningful and vulnerable conversations. i love it when characters have them.
so having thorough discussion before sex is already a vulnerable task as is——it's like, they're slowly tearing down the walls they've built around each other and then obviously everything truly does just completely crumble once the everything starts and begins to fall into place. like. yeah. too good.
and its fine!!! lol... i agree; that kind of thing is totally right up their alley. incredibly beneficial on both ends...
ITS FUN and it can be such a good way of like exploring and communicating characters. how do they act and feel in a scene (literary sense) that is very much about an extremely personal vulnerability and communicating desires. are they good at it. why/why not? its a fun layer to the whole thing.
And I Think Wataru Is Really Bad At It. this is my personal tangent and something ive been attempting to explore throughout. wataru struggles a lot with being emotionally honest even when that is something they desire from others. if we look at ep:link i think thats actually a good example: its a story where eichi throughout is very worried about wataru no longer being an idol after graduation while wataru seems to believe that theyve made it perfectly clear that they will continue to do so (i think the fact that tori and hokuto also worry about this is like an indicator that its not Super obvious to anyone: wataru auditioned to be in a specific theater troupe, for one)
eichi needs/wants explicit emotional reassurance, and wataru isnt really able to give it. its funny how obvious the mask proposal is from an outsiders perspective, but please consider eichi is a mentally ill 18 year old as well. and wataru doesn't give the explicit statement of "i love you and ill stay with you" until eichi has talked around the subject for easily 1k words and still not been able to put a word to it. and its debatable whether or not wataru gets better at it. i think they do, at least with eichi, but e.g. arguably sanctuary happened because they wanted to hang out with tomoya and couldnt ask him to hang out like a normal person.
so i absolutely think they tend to have a "ask for forgiveness rather than permission" attitude and that that can absolutely influence how they approach sex/introducing stuff mid-sex sometimes. pairing them with people who need/want stuff to be very explicitly spelled out in this case is really fun because thats like a whole new way to make wataru squirm and i think both yuzuru and eichi are that type of person. eichi still in part out of a kind of insecurity and yuzuru because he loves to have a kind of order in place that is difficult for wataru. which is a fun but necessary clash.
but yeah i know what you mean in terms of switch. the "mask" that any scene (in the bdsm sense) requires to some extent.
