HI AGAINNN. wtyz essay person here. it's been (checks notes) three days since my last response. so sorry.

i do not doubt you on that information!! the whole pain-pleasure thing sounds like a topic that eichi would bring up and have a conversation about, whether it be to himself, or to keito, or anyone else really. i think it's also so cool that you've been applying what you've studied for psych into your interests. props to you. i'm sure that that's proven to be lots of fun...

also YEAH!!!! gang is popular because of, like, yuzuru (and ibara) backstory!!! and everything about it in general is honestly just SO good for fushimi yuzuru. but also that blatant display of yuzuru's more 'deranged' side and even outright addressing that he feels SO thrilled in the face of danger (both by mika and by himself) is sooo. he fancies the adrenaline that the risk and precariousness of a dangerous situation brings him and those feelings of his really aren't afraid to show themselves sometimes. which, again, is especially highlighted in gang.

and yeah ummm, wataru being a voyeur. lol. of course! i think yuzuru would very happily listen to wataru within that context because obviously he would be new to that kind of thing but if there is one thing that he would know for certain as he begins getting into it is that he obviously wants to be Good for them. hearing directly from wataru, someone who yuzuru is aware knows eichi [very] well, helps. i'm torn between the idea of yuzuru just not feeling very bothered by the fact that wataru is basically acting as the "director" to what would be a sex scene for himself and eichi or if he'd be a little, i don't know... shy, or something like that. about being scrutinized while having sex. i think given the fact that it would be an incredibly vulnerable and personal moment that the three of them are sharing helps support the latter idea, though. even if just a tad. also i think yuzuru could maybe challenge wataru's "directing" a little bit. again. whatever that might mean. but it might be TOO bold of him to assume that he might know something better about eichi than wataru does.

BUT YES. you can imagine me nodding along to basically everything that you've said. i'm not entirely sure what else i could contribute to this conversation however i would like to say that i like the way you think——about the yuzuei and watayuzu thing. and your fine reunion au sounds suuuuper compelling, too!! i'm excited to read through that sort of watayuzu -> wataeiyuzu development one day, if i do get the chance to...