anon · 29d
i really do want to talk about it so please be rest assured that i am not trying to force myself to do anything!!! 💪 just really want to share and cover as much as i can so im hoping that i can conjure more thoughts as i go, but sometimes i cant and so i feel a little sad!! because the things you have to say regarding the topics we go over are valuable and thought-provoking so i find it such a shame whenever im unable to add more onto them because theyre reaaally good... of course, this has always been a fun and engaging discussion throughout for me. i am well aware that i am in under no obligation to 'mirror' length or respond all the time, so whenever i send another essay (written to the best of my ability at the time) into your inbox, it will always be because i wanted to! 🙏
god, yeah, you're right. of course. everything just kinda falls into place like that, huh. because how [wouldn't] the avid performer and entertainer not be an exhibitionist? lol...
but oooh, yeah, i think that that could definitely be it. yuzuru is willing to give eichi whatever it is that he wants, but i suppose that in this context it would all really have to come down to what wataru, the director, wants. so then their disinclination to comply with what eichi wants could be what yuzuru would dare to question. but whatever happens after the fact is history. maybe.
i do believe that any kind of reaction that could be incited from yuzuru is something that wataru really likes to gauge, and obviously it's even more amusing for them when it comes to the ones that would be considered unusual or abnormal for someone as guarded as that silver-tongued butler. like shyness, as mentioned. yuzuru isn't exactly the most bashful person in the world, even if hypothetically he is ordered to be embarrassing. he had no problems reenacting how a whiny, crying, bratty tori would sound like, for one example. and bringing back what wataru said in fist of the shangri-la idol that i'd mentioned a couple responses ago about how yuzuru would be able to play that ridiculous role eichi suggested for laughs without feeling any ounce of shame—so long as he is ordered to do it. so yeah. shy yuzuru. not a very common yuzuru that we get, i think. wataru could have fun with that.
and, yes... we'll see!!!!! hope you have the absolute greatest time with your boyfriend in november!!!
what a wonderful preamble especially considering the topic of these asks LMAO but yeah same ive really enjoyed talking abt it and having the like. format of the ask/response to be able to spell out a LOT and i def get not being sure what to say next :> dont worry theres never any pressure
its simply clear in everything hibiki wataru has ever done and said im afraid. that theyre an exhibitionist. sometimes im like well turning stuff someone says directly into their take on sex is boring and its more interesting to do smth more exciting but with wataru (of all characters) im like no this is real. believe me.
AND YEAH i think yuzuru as someone who does things without shame as long as hes told to do it would run against like a barrier there. idk. sex is of course infinitely more intimate (or can be) than yuzurus usual moments, it kinda requires a level of Mask Off-ness that he doesnt usually afford himself. even when he performs, he performs because hes a really good butler. this would outside of the scope of the butlering.
we will have the best time ill make sure of it :)
