HAHAHA now that you talked about it, kebongkar deh satu rahasia kimi (i wish i portrayed it clearly) yes yes he's a bit timid actually. gak yang ekstrem banget sih tapi emang gak sesupel iyo (if you notice kimi didnt have anyone he could called real friend except iyo). kimi used to avoid things before he could faced it. dulu dia selalu ngurung diri sama lukisannya tiap kali stres sebelum dia bisa clear his mind dan cerita ke iyo. nah, the time when he tells iyo everything tuh artinya dia udh selesai sama "badai"nya. jadi dia bisa cerita dan bisa lebih dengerin saran iyo (kalo belom kena distraksi dia bakal ricuh banget, beneran kayak badai)

now we talked about "kimi" to "iyo". did he avoid things because he needs the time to think or because he doesnt wanna "think" about it? sekarang coba kita bedah satu2 (buset)

1. dia pergi ke jerman dan mutus hubungannya sama iyo karena dia mau "clear" dulu pikiran dan perasaannya (he feels useless, selalu bergantung ke iyo tiap ada problem, dia juga takut kalo suatu saat dia gak bisa ngapa2in di saat dia gak bisa bergantung sama iyo lagi. he was 17-18 at that time. tindakannya serabutan. feelingnya apalagi).
2. dia tiba2 pergi sama mas chim karena dia lagi mumet dan butuh distraksi dan kimi udh bilang mas chim kebetulan hadir dan nyanggupin untuk kasih distraksi. let's say it's another person and not mas chim, ya pasti akan tetep kejadian juga ("distraksi"nya).
3. pas iyo mabok.... there's another story sebenernya. hehe. sabar dulu ya 😭

all i could say is kimi kalo lagi bingung akan cari distraksi sampe pikirannya tenang dulu, dan kalo udah tenang atau dia udah "tau" jawabannya, he wont be afraid anymore.