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If you are comfortable with sharing, how old are Kaveh, Alhaitham, and the others in ROADKILLER? I always assume Kaveh is around twenty nine because thats what I headcanon him as but it just hit me that he might not actually be that old 😭
of course! the main 4 (Alhaitham, Kaveh, Cyno, and Tighnari) are all post-college age, so at the very least 22+. i usually don't confirm ages in my stories bc i forget for continuity's sake, but if i had to guesstimate, i'd say: Tighnari at 24, Cyno at 24, Alhaitham at 25 and Kaveh at 27. enough time for kaveh to be fully jaded with his degree, for jobs to be (relatively) stable, and for all of them to do taxes ig!! i see them as similar aged in the game, though perhaps a bit older-ish, +1 year per person!
others in ROADKILLER:
- Lyney at 23 (Lynette by proxy)
- Navia at 26
- Wriothesley at 27
- Kaeya at 26
- Diluc (coming soon!) at 26
- Childe at 24
- Scara at 25
- others pending until they show up... plus The Boyfriend (TM) who i usually would let his age exist in the void but i'd say he's around kaveh's age.
I love your writing so, so much. It's a genuine inspiration. Like, how you write internal conflict is so interesting and I hope to one day capture it like you do. I've read all of your works and will continue to do so! I wish you the best :D
I think my one favourite thing about your writing is how you write physically yearning for someone. Yknow. Like the sexual tension you write is INSANE I don’t know how you do it. It’s palpable, I can TASTE it. Amazing shit
omg.... tysm... !!! my mental cheat sheet for writing tension is that it's not just a description, it's a game of buildup. tension has a source and THEN a feeling. wheres the blush without the subtle touch along their jaw? the stuttering intake of air without the teasing words that put a vice around their lungs to begin with? tension is so fun to write. it's tit for tat, each piece introduced slowly until the tension is everywhere, unignorable. bound to explode.
im still personally working on describing internal feeling over physical descriptions, constant work in progress!!! i'm so glad you've enjoyed it so far ❤️❤️
This is less of a question and more just to praise and gush over your ability to write angsty/heartwarming things but also put enough spice in there to quench my thirst. Desolee is one of my FAVORITE fics of all time because of this ;u; also, I would give my hand for more oneshots of hkvh from Call (and response). I actually discovered your other fics through reading that one xDDD
AWW thank you SO much!!!! i would love to go all out on angst someday, but i love heartwarming fluff so much too... call and response!hkvh was a particular treat to myself so i love them so much too, maybe i can brainstorm some extensions to their universe!! thank you for reading and enjoying my works, sweetheart <33
lowkey still obsessed with Alhaitham's jealousy over Nari's scent in Cologne
this is so hrgfjgh so like... the story being in kaveh's POV, it comes across that hthm is rather confident that tighnari's scenting was merely for friendship and he has no real competition for kvh's affection. but if i wrote cologne in hthm's pov omg it would be so much like DAMN these fkin instincts making me have to posture about not needing to cover up TIGHNARI'S OMEGA SCENT
LOLLL like he pretends not to be influenced by their baser instincts, but in the end he knows he'll get what he wants. cologne!kvh was def the overtly jealous one, but cologne!hthm was definitely possessive.
How much money will it take to bribe you to write a 4ggravate fic rn.
Opinion on each of the dynamics in 4ggravate?
ok i presume this means going thru the individual pairings so i'll approach it like that, feel free to come back and correct me;
tighnari/haitham: had to start with my personal guilty pleasure. many think kaveh & haitham ones to butt heads intellectually, but the real wit sparks when tighnari enters the room. it's explosive, almost bordering hate sex if they weren't so enamored with each other. haitham is such a tease and tighnari fights for control, it's a wonder nari doesn't end up biting his dick off-- but later when his cheek is pressed into the mattress and utterly wrecked, maybe he'll call it even. love them.
tighnari/cyno: insta classic, have always loved them. like classic lovers, deepened by the intimacy that comes with best-friendship. i like to think they're smitten with each other and very handsy, pinkies entwined always for the closest connection in the smallest ways. dictionary definition of understanding. lovemakers!!! yet still kinky ofc.
tighnari/kaveh: UNDERESTIMATED KINGS; their teasing is off the charts. not trying to infuriate each other, so familiar in friendship in a similar way to nari/cyno but this time with a 'ur so hot i always wanna kiss you' kind of way. even in friendship i see them being very queerplatonic; but as 4gg lovers, dial it up by 900%. always making out in the corner of lambad's, tighnari teasing little moans out of kaveh when he's feeling a tad more sadistic than usual. LOVE THEM
kaveh/cyno: underrated, understated. playing footsie while kaveh gets his ass handed to him in TCG. a caring sort of, /'be safe', 'i will'/ dynamic after starting to connect more. cyno gradually becomes softer and more unguarded around kaveh, and kaveh waits with saintly patience until finally they can spend hours cuddling, kissing, sleeping together... so soft :'((( LOVE THEM
kaveh/haitham: WHO CAN KILL THIS CLASSIC? NOBODY!!!!! please understand why i write them so often. the yearning. the familiarity. stolen glances at the man you've come to love but once fell completely apart to. hearts broken in friendship, reforged as lovers-- and in 4gg they'll be so much softer in the end, arguably the most passionate lovemakers and most bleeding of hearts in shared affection. i could imagine the 4gg boys starting to catch feelings all around, and tighnari & cyno thinking they have no chance with these two already so deeply entrenched in each others' lives. MY BOYS!
haitham/cyno: honestly my first thought was, they must've gotten SO horny after fighting each other in the desert LOL. physical fights for dominance in these kings. a new-age rivalry for alhaitham, where intellect bows out and a sort of feral instinct rises between these two. love them, can see them taking a long time to become 'affectionate' but some day it'll click and they'll kiss each other goodbye, haitham huffing in amusement and cyno covering an embarrassed pout.
bonus: triads
alhaitham/tighnari/cyno: basically, alhaitham and tighnari in a tiff about who gets to tug on cyno's leash. love them.
alhaitham/kaveh/cyno: the world's sexiest sandwich, kaveh can't get away without warring possessive marks on his neck-- or sometimes the script flipping with cyno the one being marked.
alhaitham/kaveh/tighnari: DROOLS SLOBBERS BARKBARKBARK RRRRR RUFF RUFF BARKBARK the kinkiest sweatiest double-penetrationiest snarkiest-- and the times when kaveh gets the deepest in subspace.
kaveh/cyno/tighnari: soft whispers under bedsheets. sweet hands between thighs. hushed praise, light tugs of hair, the most 'i love you's that can be said. love them.
4ggravate kink headcanons?
huhuhu... lets do this one by one again
nari: loves biting/being bitten, breeding/being bred (stronger on the latter but won't beg for it, more of a subtle adoration when it happens), versatile and switchy depending on who's on the other end. sensitive nose lends him an affinity for his lovers' scents, which cyno HIGHLY reciprocates. if heats/ruts in the story, doesn't get desperate-- gets BRATTY. he has such snark to him it's hard for me to envision him folding to another's will unless pushed into submission. otherwise i think he'd have a propensity for teasing others, using toys on others, experimenting with weird shit just to see if it sticks. he's a scientist of sorts, after all!
cyno: probably has the most physically leaning ones e.g. scent, feet, armpits, etc, won't go insane asking for them but rather indulge himself with them in the middle of the act when it's natural. i don't see him being particularly dominant, but also not the bratting type-- he'll get SUPER into it and let others make him beg, but it'll always be in whispers and quiet pleas. so, begging, marking, and just general proximity. will also wear a collar but will NOT be flaunting it about.
kaveh: arguably the kinkiest to me in terms of countering tighnari's experimenting on them, will enjoy pretty much anything thrown at him as long as they have him in that fuzzy headspace. but the best ways to get him there: praise, loving degradation, keeping his mouth occupied, stuffing him full (size kink). rarely tops, but again they can get him to do many things while he's floating off to cloud 9. also one for bondage and overstimulation. get him in something sexy, and he'll get just a bit brattier.
haitham: he's the hardest for me to envision having particular strong kinks, but rather being willing to indulge in them for the sake of others' enjoyment or experimentation. if he had top faves i'd say he enjoys binding, denying orgasms, giving TOO MANY orgasms, and general easy/hands-free ways to make the others fall apart. and of course, being the wittiest in the room lends for verbal battles for dominance as well-- kaveh loses far too quickly to those in his frustration and quick-to-form submission, cyno is more of an opponent physically than mentally... and so tighnari is his toughest to crack. more to come in the next question ;)
4ggravate body headcanons?
omg ilysm for dropping so many q's at once get ready son
so tighnari is my fav to mess around with, i love making his ears and tail super noticeable and expressive-- i see him as the shortest amongst the 4, probably around 5'6 and with somewhat broad shoulders but otherwise not a lot of build. gorgeous caramel skin. he has some pudge to his stomach and definitely has thick thighs considering all the walking/jumping of navigating the forest, and i looove the hc that he has a WICKED lightning scar down his shoulder, trailing his spine, twisting around him like a crackling vine. he's also my personal fav to hc as ftm, LOTS of shenanigans with being a fox creachur eyes emoji...
cyno is fun too, next tallest at 5'7, darkest skin with a deeply warm undertone, and the hermanubis is fun to mess with too cuz its like, who knows what that does to his body!! i wouldnt say he's crazy muscular but he's probably one of the most toned in terms of muscle structure (somehow those abs are still overshadowed by haithams) since he's extremely active in the matra work. strong arms, well toned thighs, and dirty ass feet. and i think he has a tiny booty heehee, otherwise i usually hc him as cis male, near-average size.
kaveh next tallest, 5'11 clean, he has a complex about that, don't poke fun. golden tan skin, like a beach at sunset. hair unruly and sunbleached. lean body but in a "i wield a claymore less than mehrak does" kind of way-- obviously he has the underlying muscle to yank his claymore about, but deeper tension from being hunched over and clutching his pen too hard leaves him with more difficulty training and gaining heavy muscle. instead he has some padding of fat on his body, especially after moving in with alhaitham!! boy eats WELL under his watch!! so lean, but not defined. if ftm, i see him with very little bottom growth, but if cis, my irl friend and i say hes HUNG but he just doesnt know how to use it LOLL
haitham last, 6'0 which he DEFINITELY DOES NOT TEASE ANYBODY WITH WHATSOEVER, by far the bulkiest which is so funny cuz thats literally just a guy at a desk 9-5. tawny, cool-toned, but deep tanned skin. can grow good scruff!! i just think one of his special interests happens to be toning muscle and training for excellent swordsmanship, probably sparring with others like dehya regularly. anyway, broad shoulders, bulky biceps, and hella carved abs-- though as he gets older i can see that turning into a MEAN dad bod, but never has any cake on that booty. i also unironically think he skips leg day too often bc he doesnt like those so his legs need work LOL, anyway i usually envision him cis male and slightly above average, but actually knows how to use it (low sex drive tho), and looove giving him a nice happy trail.
hope this suffices, ill answer the other q's in my inbox later!!! xxx
Opinion on 4ggravate. (More will stem from here if positive answer)
4ggravate is wonderful and i have consumed SO much of it!!!
i tend to keep my twt strictly hkvh but i do enjoy many other ships, which 4gg probably comes a close second to hkvh LOL, funny story too my original idea for ROADKILLER was supposed to be 4ggravate centric! anyway, love them boys and they should kiss n stuff... heehee... (also side piece, i LOVE hthm/nari but i hardly see it SOB)
What’s your writing process like? Do you plan things out or just kinda freestyle? How do ideas tend to come to you?
good question!! i'm very freestyle. i have a hard time planning things out especially bc i really value scenes coming naturally (e.g. in dialogue heavy scenes, who's talking, what about, and what needs to be said?) such that it can become very improv with respect to the overarching plot. in terms of planning, i DO always think about what i want the main climax to be -> what the ending FEELS like... like desolee came about thinking of kaveh's mother getting sick, and i knew i wanted the ending to be happy/hopeful, so that lays out the general flow of feeling (omg moms sick omg panic omg sharing comfort omg love omg hopeful recovery, and thats the story!) so yeah. i usually write front to back, no jumping to other scenes, which can be really hard-- but i just really want it all to build naturally and flow together without jumping around. i also do a single heavy edit before posting, but sometimes if i step away for a while i have to go back and reread anyway haha!
so per the second question, very freestyle-- for the third question, i very much become inspired by other works' tropes (usually i read from other fandoms surprisingly) and then im like hmm. id like to do that trope! otherwise ive had a LOT of ideas over the years and i havent been POSTING fics in a long time, so i have a whole flood of ideas that have accumulated that just. ive been putting on hthm and kvh LMAOO yeah but i just usually have tropes/story beats i personally enjoy and then i write abt them :> now, writing for the gotcha for gaza event has been fun because it challenges me to view ideas i dont normally think of and to run with them. im excited to finish my second prompt soon!
thanks for your question ❤️❤️‼️
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