sometimes when you experience something that deeply affects you and you gotta like process it and mellow and take a part of it with you. if its juts a story instead of a trauamtic real life experiencec you are experiencing this in a considerably more safe plce and a safe enviroment. theres a big amount of stories ive read that end up affecting me in a similiar ways but its always a hunt and hard to come by especially the older and older you get since youve already seen so much and the bar keeps rising. i think oyasumi punpun is one of the earlier ones that i remember and then theres stuff like yomawari sensei or kakukaku shikajika from the manga side and victim doll, memento in marrow, the great i am and heatwave some of the more recent visual novels from the recent years. maybe i sound liek an addict now but i think finding that media that just has you lean back and stare at the ceiling for a bit to refelct is a really good experience. anyway waht im trying to say is that its an opportunity to reflect on your values and your feelings towards these topics that made you feel so strongly. its not permanent it will pass and instead see it as breaking bones to have them grow back a bit stronger. or so the saying goes even if it is false. take from this waht you will