my answer is fairly intangible, so I'll give two answers. my first and honest one is a better version of myself. that's basically how my life feels anyway, with self-improvement never quite getting me where I want to be

the more tangible/feasible/fun answer is harder to come up with, but I think maybe it would be my cell phone. taking that away from me would be a Very Serious Punishment + a particularly intense thing to tease with. it feels like it's a part of my own body, and like the part of my body which most connects me to the rest of the world (as well as the place where I make notes for myself). it's like a part of my brain that you can touch (and by and large, I dont let people touch it)