anonus · 10d
imagining fyodor suddenly stroking nikolai’s hair, massaging his scalp, and touching him so suddenly for the first time out of the blue, before they even began any relationship. maybe for knowing what nikolai might feel for him, and watch his mind collapse and find it lovely (maybe fyodor would also be asking for trouble if he were to do something like this so suddenly, but that’s another story). you make me think of them even more than i did before, these two 😞
Ohh I like this scenario a lot bc it can go with lighter and darker undertone.
Lighter would be: Fyodor finds Nikolai intriguing but specifically Nikolai's conflicted feelings for him he's still trying to zero in on (they've just met). So Fyodor tests him by instigating caresses, Nikolai melts and coos under his touch and Fyodor realizes he's head over heels. As well as that maybe he himself isn't so opposed to this. It feels nice. He tries recalling when it was the last time he did something this tender without a hidden agenda. Maybe Nikolai will get him reused to that sentiment.
Darker would be mostly from Nikolai's POV: for, to him, unknown reasons Fyodor instigated physical touch. His soul craves for it so he yielded, in spite of knowing better. Fyodor keeps humming and talking in metaphors while stroking hair until he massages the scalp and murmurs how little it takes for a mind to collapse and liberate itself. In that moment chill passes down Nikolai's spine bc everything smells of brainwashing - especially given Fyodor's fingers on his skull. Caresses and closeness themselves feel good, Nikolai is trying to relax and savor the moment but he's can't help being jittery and on guard. He ends up showing teeth, out of defense.
