Thanks 🩷🩷 I wish you happy new eve and holidays too anon. I won't delete Twitter, just aim to use it less. Whenever I open tl it's some negativity or posts that make me roll eyes. It became a pattern that does nothing but stresses me out, thus I think it's the best I cut Twitter short. Especially now that I'm shadowbanned for some reason. I've seen some other moots are too so I suppose it's Twitter being Twitter.

Overall I don't think I'm cut for the today's fandoms. I avoided social media all my life because I dislike it. I joined around 2022 just because I wanted to talk about characters and ships somewhere. Considering I didn't grow up 'online' most of humor, trendy things and general mindsets of the vast majority are absolutely lost on me. It makes me feel like fish out of the water. Me still being here is a living testament to how much I actually love bsd. I love blabbering about it.

I can go miles about collective agressive bully 'reading in worst faith' mindset but I believe I don't need to. We all know that. That's not just bsdtwt thing but Twitter thing in general. So let's focus on fandom more.

I more often find myself disagreeing with fandom's portray of characters/ships than not. I'm not here to police anyone's perceptions, neither can nor should, but it still puzzles me when some blatant OOC-ness or jokes/ideas on levels of middle schoolers get massive attention. For example these days I've stumbled upon a complex and accurate descriptions of one character - from an acc with 50 followers. And then you have 1k+ accs making the worst oversimplifications and blatant OOC takes and receiving 1k+ likes - on something that's plainly incorrect.

Don't get me wrong. Likes aren't the point. Followers ain't either. General opinion of fandom and spreading of mischaracterization are. We can argue until tomorrow whether latter can be strictly defined, and I'd dare state none of us are above 'mischaracterization' entirely. There's nothing inherently 'wrong' with that. It's the hivemind-ness of social media that bothers me. That blind compliance. You're constantly one step away from being dragged for most mundane things just because people can't handle conflict of opinions - on stuff that, in grander scope of things, are painfully innocuous. That's reflection of maturity, or rather immaturity. There's zero social awareness, zero social skills and basic decency - social media eroded that in people.

Circumstances at my place are such that I've been more involved with local community these months. When you spend hours talking about serious issues with people offline and the log in and see someone being called names over HCs and pixels it really puts into perspective how unimportant that all is. Friend once said engaging into those discourses and dramas is counterproductive, analogous to arguing with a right winger - not only because you can never win against someone who refuses to see reason and compromise, but because it mentally wears you down. Participation means enabling, thence it's the best to step away altogether. I agree with that.

All in all, I'm a writter (and an analyst from time to time), getting a big following wasn't my goal. I have no clue how I got to 1.2k with 0 efforts to be an influencer, but if it's due to my writing, ramblings and ideas then I'm grateful. Because that's what I initially meant to use Twitter for and still will.