I like you, for a while now. you probably think, I like you just because of your port. however, it’s not like that. I also thought that I’m attracted to you because of your port, it’s not everyday I encounter someone who uses rafayel as his muse. I was wrong to be honest, maybe it was the energy that you radiate, or the way you interact with your friends, yes, maybe that was the case. either way, I became fascinated by you, and I began to want to know you more. and the moment I realized that I have grown this unusual feeling towards you, I was scared. seriously, after so many years of avoiding people, I’ve finally liked someone again. it scared me, for reasons only I know. honestly, I was expecting these feelings would go away over time, but instead of that, it grew and grew to something I dreaded the most. of course I won’t label it as love, that word is far too deep to explain my feelings for you. I admire you, genuinely. this confession of mine isn’t for you to reciprocate my feelings, in fact I know you wouldn’t do that. I’m confessing so that you can reject me, and I can finally put these feelings of mine to a stop. I don’t like it, I don’t wanna like someone romantically. but you, however, just broke the wall I’ve been keeping the whole time. you made me feel things (I know your interactions are purely platonic) it’s not foreign to me, but since it’s been so long since I had feelings for someone, I was a bit surprised that I was still able to feel that way. I’m hesitating to actually say these words to you while writing it. I really don’t wanna write a confession, but my feelings for you is growing each day, and I want it to stop. you don’t have to respond to this, it’s your choice if you would, but you’re not obligated to. I really just want to express my feelings for you, kai. you’re a very admirable person, hardworking, and kind, maybe more than that, and you may have your flaws as well, but we all have that, it’s natural since we’re humans. also, I want to remind you (again) not to overwork yourself, you’re doing a great job now, and will do better, I’m serious, don’t push yourself too hard. I think I’ve written this confession so long, it might have bored you, but I’ve said what I wanted to say, so I’m ending it now. and if you have an idea of who I am, please don’t confront me privately (I will die out of embarrassment and may or may not deact my account😭) I like you very much, kai. thank you for making me feel that way, but I’m gonna have to let go of these feelings. so I hope our relationship as friends wouldn’t change (if you have an idea who I am) I hope it stays that way, have a good day!