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idk why am I typing it out here but I'm going to die soon ..
Not because of any illness though, basically I'll take my own life.
I failed an important exam that promotes me to the next level of education and I gave it for the second time.. I got the result 1 month back and still haven't told anyone in my family but now I probably need to because the admin office needs my parents signatures in it. I was going to uni but now they will ask for the exam documents and it's written that I haven't passed it so I will be thrown out from there too. And who I fear the most is my dad. I have already disappointed him and it's been really bad for me. I cannot explain you how it has been .. from physical to verbal he's done everything to me and it's unbearable. Just when I thought Everything will finally be alright it ends up like this. I never thought I'd fail the test because it did go okay..
I really just don't know. tomorrow my uni has asked for the documents idk what to do .. and 26th is my birthday I really want to be there for my god knows last birthday. I really want it to get over in peace. I really don't know anymore other than dying as my only option. The situation is much worse than it sounds through this text
i’m truly sorry for only getting back to you now. i haven’t opened my account for a month, and i really hope you’re still here and that things are getting better. i know it’s easier said than done, and i may not fully understand what you’ve been through, but i want you to know that failing a test, even an important one doesn’t define your as a whole. even if someone important to you is doubting you, i hope you don’t let their doubts bring you down. i know it’s hard, and you don’t deserve to go through this. but i hope that one day, you’ll see this situation as universe’s way of leading you toward a different path—one that’s truly meant for you, to something beautiful that is waiting for you in the future, and it will guide you to the love and happiness you seek. i don’t want to say too much, as i fear i might misunderstand your situation, but if you ever want to talk, feel free to reach me on the DMs through your private account or anything. i wish i could be there for you so you don’t have to go through this alone.
(i want to see all the happiness that life will bring you, even when you turn 70, so please, keep holding on.)
