the concept of tokki hyung is fine ! he's protective, he's understanding, he goes out of his way to learn about you & be caring while also catering to dirty nasty sex....... my issue isn't with him at all. its just that touchtank, the fic specifically, is such a sore spot for a majority of reasons that it's hard to talk about the fic. everything surrounding when i began to write it (taehyung's singular topping scene being a day-long argument because i said "skip the chapter" & that was apparently insensitive of me, talking about the age gap & being told that i was glamorizing grooming, having the fic be misconstrued as an only-sexy good time instead of my usual deep dive character study [i posted nsfw snippets because i wanted the plot to be a surprise]) just weighs down on me & it's just. really hard emotionally to be excited to write it, is all. i go back & forth between loving touchtank & just wishing i'd never come up with the concept for it.