realistically not anytime soon! i haven't done commissions (i've technically done commissions before, just not on this account) but like . idk how to word this

i have multiple reasons why i don't wanna do commissions! like generally, i like to have full artistic freedom and commissioning kinda feels like sacrificing a bit of that for money if that makes sense, like,, i kinda just wanna draw what i wanna draw ?! and also i KINDA DON"T LIKE THE EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE OF feeling indebted to someone, especially with an obligation to get things done "as reasonably quickly as possible" like . if someone commissions me i'm gonna have this looming feeling AND AND y'all can be so nice and be like "take as much time as you want :)" but realistically you wouldn't want to wait a year for a drawing and my work ethic is so bad like idk. i feel like my timeliness has been getting better but i still feel like i might struggle doing commissions in a timely manner, like i don't fully trust myself yet- i can be as lazy as i want right now since it's at the expense of literally nobody but as soon as i start playing with people's MONEY i feel like i have to treat it with a lot more respect!!